goint

classes start 2 weeks from today. the very rational part of my mind is sure i will show up ready in two weeks time and the nerves will feel more anticipatory. right now it's just a little bit of dread.

4 weeks post op today! got a pretty nice routine going, more walking but still lots of rest. i feel really good, it is like a key i've been given to unlock a new way to carry myself. i've balanced bed and rest time with daily tasks and errands and lots of reading. i am about three quarters of the way through pachinko by min jin lee. it's a really great book. earlier today, i got a text from a close friend in my hometown saying her boyfriend is visiting her and that we should all meet up. we met up in town and went back to her place to continue the season of taskmaster we had started the previous day. her boyfriend is a fun guy and rolled us a lovely goint (girl joint. with a lil bit of lavender.). i am very content :)

yesterday that playboy carti "it's the first of the month" tiktok audio was inescapable and i did it because i had totally scrolled past it on the first day of july and bad news from the past week has been challenging. every little superstition helps. speaking of news from late july, my dog is getting both of his eyes removed tomorrow. poor old man.