"Feeling like Richard Ramirez"
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Category: Life
Woah. Even the crushes Ive had of celebrity men have never reached a sexual point. It’s much more easier to find sexual attraction towards a woman than a man for me. I can see myself with a woman, kissing, hugging, touching. I think I’m a lesbian🤦🏾♀️. Turns out I’ve only ever liked being liked by men. The feeling that comes from it. I tolerate men. I’ve told them that to their face. I like women... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I recently moved. That means I spent most of my savings and I felt like quickly stocking back up. So I’ve been doing doubles for three weeks. Around Monday of this week my cycle fully slammed me, and with it a few flu symptoms. I don’t even know if I have pto to claim so I just kept working doubles. Overworking my body. A big sacrifice for sure. it’s worth it. The year is rolling around the corner... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
I have been dreaming about you every night for the past week and a half. Don’t know what it means. Just know I miss the way you smell and your warm hugs. Every dream I’m jumping into your arms and you’re accepting yet distant. It’s like you don’t want to get hurt again. I never intended to hurt you in the first place. I didn’t want to disappoint you. I have to be ok with never seeing you again. I... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I don’t know if you knew, but I’m cute. I love skating, but no matter where I go I attract folks with my beautiful energy. I crave privacy sometimes. I just need to practice sometimes and the fact that someone that knows my aura keeps looking my way makes me mess up. I went ice skating at Bryant’s Park to get that because I don’t know people there and planned to even if I did act stupid and look a... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I recently went out on a date. Because of my celibacy I have let everyone interested know that I’m only down to do platonic activities. I was asked to the museum by a friend in a casual conversation, so I thought nothing of it. A week before the day we were set to go to the immersive art museum he made it clear that he’s interested in more than friendship. I’m not gonna lie, I’m good at telling pe... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Too many thoughts yet I haven’t given myself the chance to recollect. A lot to cone » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Cried together is giving me sentimental horniness. It’s making me reminisce harder than his dick when I did that thing he liked. I can’t stop thinking about him, but I’m doing the best to stay away. It makes no sense. It’s like my finger slips and I’m looking back at old texts or whatnot. Fuck man, even when it was bad I was so willing to work on it. I have just carried this fear of rejection so h... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
This morning I rose back from the grave. I have no wound because it was electrical shock💕 » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I saw you a few months ago skating at Broadway Junction while I was waiting for the J train. Sometime in May.. the first thing I noticed, beside your shirt, was that you had recently gone back to Virginia because you had a retwist. Your locs looked fresh and so was the hairstyle. The only thing replaying over and over in my head was how glad I was to not be near you during that time. It brought ba... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
It’s funny to think that the guy that put his hands on me continues to talk me down, be gross and still trash talking to me on my line, while thinking that all that will ever give him a chance to be in my life. Nothing makes someone respect you less and see you as small than speaking to someone like they are your own personal cum and spit bucket. He would have the audacity to send me $10 $15 “brea... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
It pains me to say that after multiple conversation I’ve been told I was stupid and just right now on my bus ride it clicked in that I was stupid. But maybe not??? I blocked the guy I love when I got fired from my previous employer. I did it out of my own fear of being rejected and insecurities. He had mentioned, or rather suggested before that he doesn’t prefer to date insecure girls and that if ... » Continue Reading
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