AHHHHH!!!!! I WANT TO EXERCISE BUT I CAN'T FIND ANY TIME TO!!!!!! I've been glued to this chair working on finals for an entire week and my legs are starting to feel like gelatin. It's not the end of the world that I haven't, but I'd really like to get on the treadmill for an hour to stretch my legs. Also, Boyfriend wants to open his place up as a little anime maid pop up cafe. I agreed to help hi... » Continue Reading
My words, like rainfall, puddle at your feet. Snail infested lakes flood crevices in the sidewalk. Your eyes, drawn down, evade the clouds smoking us out of our den with water. You cannot refer to me with anything other than grit teeth. » Continue Reading
I dreamt I was pregnant. It's weird because that's the first time I've ever dreamt such a thing. I guess I've considered it before, being a mom, but that's very much a thing for sometime like a decade from now. I remember boyfriend took me out on a fishing date before I was to go in for an abortion. I had hesitated to tell him because I was worried he'd say something sweet and I'd end up keeping i... » Continue Reading
It's true, Black Friday isn't at all what it used to be. Today me and my sister went out to shop around and I only bought myself the first NGE omnibus and an LPS Iguana from Five Below and neither were on sale. In fact, NGE costed me $27 and would've been cheaper online after applying a discount. Though shipping would've ran me a bit. I guess it's led me to being down about next year. Sure I'm gr... » Continue Reading
Happy thanksgiving to all who celebrate! And if ya don't, have a wonderful Thursday November 28th 2024!!! Last night me and Boyfriend went out to the Birdcage for the last open mic night of the year. He'd called me earlier that day to organize a last minute performance of a Cafe Tacvba song and I sang while he did guitar!!! We also did a cover of Creep by Radiohead on the spot and it went really ... » Continue Reading
For school, I'm reading My Year of Meats and I've grown very fond of the character Akiko and how she's written. While at first I was quite upset that I had to put The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Trip down until my essay on the book is finished, I'm very much enjoying this book too! Akiko isn't the main character of the book, and here's where I talk about spoilers (you've been warned), she's the wife o... » Continue Reading
I am so thankful for him. He is so loving of me. This is what I know to be the truth. I feel cured of something ghastly. The pain in my chest has subsided. The storm is over, the sun is out again. Quite literally as well. Friday, me and him had a nice, drunken heart to heart and in explaining what I feel, I've found what I needed in order to process it. I'm unsure whether it's age, graduation lo... » Continue Reading
"I'm a chill guy who lowkey don't give a fuck," I whisper to myself. I crack open the window to receive the sun and brew another tea. November is the worst month. It's the Thursday of the whole year. The end is so close. New beginnings are already bleeding through and yet, it is here, on the cusp of the final countdown, where things must be in a constant state of movement to reach their conclusion... » Continue Reading
Empty as the soil once the flower bed's been pruned. Lost as a drop of rain, crashing, stomach-first, into the river. Hopeless as a promise, I will live. But my garden is long gone and my womb will be bare. @import url('https://fonts.googleap » Continue Reading
He is the blinding light in a shroud of darkness!!! He's the sea to my salt!!! He's the milk to my bitter coffee!!!! I am sick of being so sad so I'm going to yap about my boyfriend because I love him and because he doesn't shame me for being seasonally and generally down in the dumps! Last night I told him how I felt about everything, that I just wasn't feeling very fly like a g6 at the moment, a... » Continue Reading
I feel as though my writing is missing something. I'm currently working on chapter 7 and beginning chapter 8 of the book I'm writing as the second share for my thesis class is on the 22nd. But I've reached a problem. There are times where I need to call back on the mc's thoughts and rejection of her romantic feelings towards the love interest, but I feel like it's repetitive? Maybe it's supposed t... » Continue Reading
UGGGHHHHHHHH URGGHHHHHH AAUUUUGHHHHHHHH I can't find anything poetic to say about recent events so take these inhuman sounds of agony. The job hunt is still on. It's been on. It will never be off. But now I think I should shift gears to dedicating my new hypothetical paycheck to a running away fund in case my parents and my boyfriend move to Mexico in the next few years. I should probably learn S... » Continue Reading