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my december

Category: Life

a friend i've talked about on the blog before invited me to a house party for their birthday (well not specifically me, it was a general post on their close friends story on instagram but they replied after i swiped up so i guess that's an invitation??) but i'm feeling so conflicted about it.  i have no idea who will be there, if ill recognize anyone at all from past or present, or if it'll be lik... » Continue Reading

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outfit dissection; [19.10.25]

Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping

SHIRT slipknot 2022 knotfest road show tour shirt; undershirt is a seahawks crewneck that i turned inside out (theres writing on the sleeve) PANTS army pants hand-me-downs from my dad BAG domokun bag from my biodad i got when i was like 13(?) SHOES danner brand green lifestyle shoes i got for free from working th » Continue Reading

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trans day of remembrance

Category: Life

there was a memorial for trans people that have died by suicide/been killed in 2025 at the park. i hadn't planned to be there for more than 20 minutes or so. but a soon as i started getting near the memorial i saw around 25 trans people all surrounding the memorial letting person after person speak. and eventually i got the courage to go up. i didn't have anything planned so i just talked about gr... » Continue Reading

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every [gay person] got the [homoerotic friendship]

Category: Friends

there's a running joke amongst queer people about that one homoerotic friendship that you had as a young kid/teen that fundamentally changed the way you went about your life. and because i'm a walking stereotype of course i had one too. years before i came out as anything.  we were more touchy feely than friends usually are (but i don't really know that because i don't know how touchy feely is too... » Continue Reading

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reads for trans awareness week

Category: Writing and Poetry

synopsis from wikipedia: almost perfect  by brian katcher — "The book follows Logan, a high-school senior, who, after discovering his girlfriend cheated on him, befriends the new student, Sage. Logan gradually develops romantic feelings for Sage unti » Continue Reading

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religious trauma and other freeze-frames of my past

Category: Religion and Philosophy

there's a picture of a river on wikipedia that i can't get out of my mind, because i swear that i've been there before. before we moved west. the church me and my family used to go to is near there, so i think i must've been there for an outdoor event. maybe an easter potluck or something. i've been thinking of the past a lot more recently. i don't have many memories of my childhood up until secon... » Continue Reading

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mosaics

Category: Music

whenever i feel like i have nothing to listen to in terms of music, i usually look at my friends playlists and what they're listening to. and so i looked through one named "unskippable september." i saw a song from a local band i recommended to her and some songs that she found through a mixtape i made her. i dunno why but it really got to me. there's a tumblr post that goes something along the li... » Continue Reading

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when am i done being a tourist?

Category: Travel and Places

it's been almost a year since i moved from the mid-sized city i spent most of my life in to the biggest city in my state. the neighborhood i live in has apparently been slowly gentrified by tech-bros moving into the new fancy and expensive apartments they keep building. it's kind of funny seeing these beautiful historical antique apartment buildings (some are important enough to have their own wik... » Continue Reading

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a not-so-stressful weekend

Category: Life

after the event that was thursday it was nice to spend the rest of the weekend just chilling. on friday i spent the night at my Dads house so i wouldn't have to take an early morning bus on saturday because saturday i had tickets to go with my family to Horrorcon. which is (as expeccted) a horror-themed convention in the pnw. the actual event was pretty fun, although i didn't have a lot of money. ... » Continue Reading

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a stressful weekend

Category: Pets and Animals

i'm at the library right now while my apartment tests fire alarms and checks in-unit sprinklers. which means i had to spend 2 days doing a deep clean of the entire place, hiring a catsitter, and hiding any cat paraphernalia that i own, just so my landlord doesn't find out i've been hiding a cat in my strictly NO PETS apartment. on tuesday i had absolutely no idea where i was going to take my cat f... » Continue Reading

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uncomfortable situations

Category: Life

my dad dropped me off at the bus stop today, like he usually does on thursdays, and within not even a second after i shut the door this person starts talking to me. at first they just make general small talk about my band shirt and ask me about the bus route, but then they mentioned that they were going to a show that they got free tickets for. so i say something like "oh really?" and they replied... » Continue Reading

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wake me up when september ends

Category: Life

pros of the last few days: because my mp3 player app doesn't have a broadcast option my work just gave me access to their spotify family plan, so now i get free spotify my little brother came up from [state] for the weekend so me and him and my dad all went to the mall on sunday me and my friend (the one who i went to the flea market with) went to a show at a park and then walked around for a whil... » Continue Reading

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