Today was good I guess, boys are so mean though and I hate it so much because it’s hard for me to not give a fuck about what they say to me or say about me. I wanna kill myself because of it, really I have more reasons to wanting to kill myself other then that though. I just want Friday to pass already so the stress of tomorrow can continue tomorrow instead of now. I have a C in health like alwa... » Continue Reading
Got all my school work done today :D I have a C in health still and I believe another C in English but overall I think my grades are fine, I do know that my dad would be disappointed in me though. I think I’m gonna update my profile layout a bit more to make it more cluttered because that’s how I like it >:3 My art has improved since last school year when I was a freshman, I still am making mista... » Continue Reading
MY WI-FI HASN"T BEEN WORKING AND I HATTTTTTE IT SO MUCH, ALL I WANNA DO IS PLAY ROBLOX, AND WATCH TIKTOKS AND YOUTUBE VIDEOS. AHHHHH, I WANNA CHAT WITH SOMEONE RIGHT NOW BUT IDK WHO AND IM BAD AT STARTING CONVERSATIONS WITH PEOPLE. imma talk about something different now that's been on my mind, what does the " I saw the tv glow" trend talking about because I'm not sure I understand it. » Continue Reading
I swear I keep procrastinating whenever I don't want to, it's hard to get out of the habit and I hate how my brain works because of it. I've started to do something this week and I feel a bit better because of it even though I know it's hurtful in reality. I'm meant to be some health work right now and I'm having a hard time to get it done, I got it started at school but I need to fully finish it... » Continue Reading
I was gonna post a internet diary yesterday but I forgot :p I hate using the SpaceHay website so I’m trying to get the mobile version but my dad has to agree so I could have it. It kinda scares me because a big part of me says he gonna find out about what I post and he’s gonna ground me for it. But again, I know what I’m doing on here and I know the dangers of sharing personal information online ... » Continue Reading
I wish I could lose my hearing, people are always too loud or too quiet and it hurts my brain and gets me irritated. This morning I was eating breakfast and I could’ve heard my brother chewing and I just wanted to yell at him to shut up and eat without any noise. For a while I been having problems in class where more people are there, they just don’t know how to shut up. At the school I go to the ... » Continue Reading
Guessing the Internet Diary is always gonna be posted on a weekend because of school :p I WAS KARKAT FOR HALLOWEEN AND IM SO HAPPY ABOUT IT, ALSO FOR ANYONE INTERESSTED IN EPIC THE MUSICAL THE VENGEANCE SAGA SOUNDS SO GREAT AND I LOVED SIX HUNDRED STRIKE :D I'm going to get the Karkat plush which makes me happy since I finally will have something to remind me that I was into Homestuck. I wanna get... » Continue Reading
I noticed a pattern whenever I’m online on the internet, I’m always associating myself with a fictional character. The association between me and that character always makes me think I’m them. Right at this moment the character I’m associating myself with is Eridan from Homestuck. It’s hard to not feel like I’m them, just a couple weeks (or maybe month ago) I felt like I was Sollux. I don’t even ... » Continue Reading
I’m sleepy T-T Anyways i feel better, still hate myself but I believe that’s never gonna go away. I hate coming up with username ideas but I REALLY wanna change my side tiktok account username because I don’t like it anymore :p I want the username to at least have gemini in it because thats my zodiac sign. My brain decided to chug coffee at PE today and now I REALLY regret doing that (it was in ... » Continue Reading
Were we supposed to know from birth on how to not crossed people’s boundaries or did we learn it in school like how we learned how not to be a snitch or is it just impossible for me to not cross a love one’s boundaries. It seems like everyone I know in real life knows already or at lest learned it in school, I feel stupid and like I deserve to die for what I did. I pore down all my love for them ... » Continue Reading