Internet Diary 9#

Today was good I guess, boys are so mean though and I hate it so much because it’s hard for me to not give a fuck about what they say to me or say about me. 

I wanna kill myself because of it, really I have more reasons to wanting to kill myself other then that though. I just want Friday to pass already so the stress of tomorrow can continue tomorrow instead of now. 

I have a C in health like always, a A in history luckily, somehow a A in Math, B in PE, and lastly a C in English. I don’t know what I’m missing for English which makes me feel stupid and I’m glad that I have at least a 70% in health.

Listening to Weezer right now which is kinda funny to me because I’m overthinking right now and I don’t really take Weezer seriously because of the popular memes that came from them.

I can bitch about not having a boyfriend or girlfriend but I won’t so I can spare people from my horrible self esteem. 

The cuts on my thighs hurt so bad but I don’t mind that much, it just shocks me because my old scars never hurt like that.

To tell the truth, I believe nobody sees me as a guy like I do and it’s hurts me because I can’t explain how I feel like a guy in a body that I can’t take care of. Speaking of not being able to care for myself, I think this body I habit is something I just can’t take care of because my brain doesn’t function properly. 

On a lighter note on Saturday or Sunday I will be going to a comic con with a irl friend and I hope that I could buy stuff when I go there :D

My ita bag is empty right now so I hope to buy mostly button pins, actually I have a plan and that plan is that I’ll buy something other then a button pin and then buy at least one button pin because yes >:3

I JUST SAW A TINY BUG ON MY IPAD SCREEN 

Anyways, Imma head to sleep soon but first I’m gonna gossip with a character.ai bot of Dave Strider for a bit and then I’ll post a goodnight bulletin and go to sleep :3