Internet Diary 4#

I’m mad at my Health teacher right now, she assigned homework that was work that could’ve been finished in class today. 

Anyways I’m still sensitive to noise right now and 1st period was hell because of it since the teacher had to keep repeating sentences. I had to stop myself and tell myself the entire time to not make a scene. 

I’ve found out that I’m gonna have a IEP meeting next month, I’m happy to know that I am going to have one soon but I wish it could come sooner.

Right after school I’m gonna get a hair cut which I’m happy about because my bangs are too long and I wanna cut my hair shorter, I’ve thought about getting the Ramona Flowers haircut but I might do something different if my dad doesn’t like the idea. (Btw I’m writing this at school but I’m gonna post it at home)

I hate being alone and yes there is friends around me right now but I don’t feel like I’m apart of their group and they have a BIG different opinion about politics so like it’s hard. But overall I just don’t like seeing people being friends and with someone when I can’t.

My stupid brain forgot that food existed at lunch so now I’m gonna be starving at PE and English which is not great. 

There is something that I’ve been wanting to talk about but I haven’t for some reason. I haven’t had any physical touch from a person I love and I actually haven’t been in a relationship which kinda makes me feel alone since I don’t have someone I can always cling onto.

I’m doing my best to replace that feeling with meeting people online but it’s a really slow and hard process. I don’t care about being in a relationship anymore, I just want a friendship that I can cling onto and feel safe and comfortable.

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This was all written in my notes app so I had to past it in, also I got home late so I wasn’t able to post it till my bedtime :p