Internet Diary 5#

I was gonna post a internet diary yesterday but I forgot :p

I hate using the SpaceHay website so I’m trying to get the mobile version but my dad has to agree so I could have it.

It kinda scares me because a big part of me says he gonna find out about what I post and he’s gonna ground me for it. 

But again, I know what I’m doing on here and I know the dangers of sharing personal information online with complete strangers. 

I’m not stupid enough to get fucking groomed online, I talk and choose the people I wanna be with unlike real life.

In real life all the people around me that is around the same age as me or is the same age as me are racist, or homophobic, both, or WORSE.

I’m sick and tired of it and I want out of the US because of it, I don’t care what place I go to because all I really want is to feel safe where I live and enjoy it.

I’m friends with a person who supports hittler’s actions and I hate it and wish I could choose to not be friends with them, but I have no choice if I don’t wanna be a loser with no friends.

Another IRL friend I have is a selfish person who doesn’t realize how good he has it with his family. Everything has to go his way, he treats his mother and grandma like they hate him which is FAR from the truth. 

Without them I would have nobody to be friends with at all.

I wanna cry myself to sleep now because of how much I’m thinking.

I’m mentally fucked, and it’s all because of my environment and family. I know if were to be born and lived somewhere different and had family that were able to heal I’d be stable, but I guess life wants me to suffer instead by giving me nothing good and having more then enough people hating me for who I am.