It’ll take a bit of writing to give all of the details but my kindness and inability to say no could’ve seriously gotten me hurt or killed tonight. Worse yet, my partner was with me so she was in danger too. I’m never giving a stranger a ride home again. » Continue Reading
My mom found a lump in her breast today because it was itching. She said when she had breast cancer when I was a kid it itched too. She has a mammogram in a few weeks at least. I already feel sick with worry. Yeah I’m not close to my mom like I once was but I am embarrassingly completely dependent on her. I’m still unemployed. Still trying to get a job through vocational rehab but they’re likely n... » Continue Reading
Someone who has the life that I’ve always wanted now has their dream job too. Meanwhile I’ve been unemployed for a year and there’s a lot of jobs that I can’t do because of my disabilities. I’m not using them as an excuse, it’s just the truth. Trying to do jobs that go poorly with my disabilities would either get me fired or further my physical disabilities. It’s already happened once and I still ... » Continue Reading
We went to a local flea market. There was a charity food truck there. When I went to buy something for us to eat I realized that I couldn’t find my credit card in my things. The guy serving us said we could go ahead and take the food & go to an ATM & then come back. He said that “us sisters have to stick together,” and we realized that he was gay. I assume he clocked me because my sunglasses had t... » Continue Reading
So I did a brave thing for someone with anxiety; I went to a holi party of sorts with my girlfriend Wren that a local gay guy was hosting. I was anxious and I was expecting it to be mostly older gay men there but there was a couple guys younger than me there also and one that was maybe an older millennial. He had just gotten a Bulbasaur tattoo that looked awesome. He had a Spirited Away one too. L... » Continue Reading
My girlfriend & I broke up with our other girlfriend last night. We moved states a few weeks ago & since then we barely talk to her. She also is seeing this new girl and barely has time for us. I should be more upset than I am. Idk. My girlfriend was crying about it last night and I just wasn’t. It was a 6 month relationship & I had kind of prepared myself to lose her when I knew that we were movi... » Continue Reading
Our first queer support group meeting went well. I met a hot girl and a hot nonbinary person. They called me darlin and I think I inhaled very gayly in response. 🙂🫠 I met some really cool people tonight of all ages. The youngest was 18 and the oldest was in her 60’s or 70’s. Wren and I exchanged numbers with the other younger members so that was nice. I’m looking forward to our meeting next month.... » Continue Reading
When things start to settle down after you move into a new house so your depression kicks in like “what am I doing here? What will I do to keep myself entertained? Why don’t I want to do anything? How do people live their lives and not feel like shit? What is my purpose?” » Continue Reading
The move has been so stressful and exhausting. I had a panic attack during the 9 hour drive. First my face started getting tingly on one side, like when a limb falls asleep. This eventually progressed to my entire face. When I started to cry my eyes started burning until I could barely see. It was terrifying. Thank god there was hardly any traffic because it was the wee hours of the morning so I d... » Continue Reading
My mom says that we’re moving Thursday now (idk if that’ll actually happen because there’s still a lot that needs done) but it’s getting very real for me. » Continue Reading