Ashamed of myself

Someone who has the life that I’ve always wanted now has their dream job too. Meanwhile I’ve been unemployed for a year and there’s a lot of jobs that I can’t do because of my disabilities. I’m not using them as an excuse, it’s just the truth. Trying to do jobs that go poorly with my disabilities would either get me fired or further my physical disabilities. It’s already happened once and I still experience numbness in my foot on rare occasions because of it. Yet I’m not “disabled enough” to be taken seriously or to get accepted for SSI which doesn’t pay for people’s rent these days anyway. They make it impossible to get on SSI, everyone gets rejected over and over. Now there’s talk of this wonderful country making homelessness illegal. If my parents weren’t so generous I would be homeless.