This will be the last time i add dents to my skin contain the anger i feel. Its almost as if i can't control myself anymore, my hands go stiff and the next thing i know im at it again. It takes all there is in me to keep my cool but the one instance of me not doing so has me landed in an even worst spot. Aftercare is embarrassing, cleaning up the mess i made is embarrassing, the lies i tell are em... » Continue Reading
3 days ago i received the news that me and my siblings will be moving back into our house in the capital of the country. This caught me off guard since there wasn't a warning or anything, just ''kids pack your bags we are going first thing next wednesday!''. I honestly don't know how i feel about this. I used to be afraid of change. i would desperately hang to the last bit of fami » Continue Reading
kirks death has been quite the controversy these few days, and i wanted to lay down what i thought about it in a clear format :p Charlie kirk was the scum of the earth. He was a horrible person with grotesque views who influenced the minds of young individuals- promoting hate crime, racism, islamophobia and genocide. I feel not even an ounce of sympathy for him, but i don't believe he should have ... » Continue Reading
Got time to login again today! so about the first day of school, it was pretty whatever. The girl i talk most with didn't come, tho i was still able to make do with my other friends. There was a new girl which apparently used to be in this school before my admission , shes pretty fun (we both talked about gacha and yandere simulator together) but unfortunately she did some pretty fucked up shit in... » Continue Reading
hello again! so today is the end of summer vacation (it technically ended a week or so ago but whatever) and i am not very proud to declare that i didn't really do anything worth taking note of at all. In about 8 months ill be having very important exams, so this school year i need to take responsibility. I regret not having more fun in 9th grade since i won't have time to have fun now. i really s... » Continue Reading
Wow im so scared and my head is pounding because i tried to control the surge of anger i felt just now because of my bitch of a sister. She knows exactly what to say and do to push my buttons. What a bitch. Anyways i have an mun to attend in 4 days and i haven't started my research yet. I tried to today but got distracted » Continue Reading
I'm wasting the few free days that i have left, which is a great reason for my guilt to arise again. I don't even know what's productive anymore like am i really suppose to use these days to study??? I want to learn new skills but what skills are there to learn? 3rd art is pissing me off for some reason, art in general is tiring these days. Im beginning to dislike things i thought i would always l... » Continue Reading