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I'm wasting the few free days that i have left, which is a great reason for my guilt to arise again. I don't even know what's productive anymore like am i really suppose to use these days to study??? I want to learn new skills but what skills are there to learn? 3rd art is pissing me off for some reason, art in general is tiring these days.

Im beginning to dislike things i thought i would always like (pancakes for example). Every conversation feels like an obligation, but without any contact with people i feel even worst. 

But it isn't all that bad i guess, this is one of the better days. Im getting better, been clean for a whole term now. 

The thing is, now i don't know how i really feel. Am i happy? Am i still a people pleaser? it took me ages to understand a certain version of myself, but that version ceases to exist now.

Any how, a friend recommended me a new show to watch and i've really been enjoying it!

the sillies ever <3

its written by the author of oyasumi punpun, no wonder its so good.

Im also gonna force myself to finish rereading one of kafka's books, i don't remember it being this short ngl. After that I'll start reading letters to milena. I just realized i haven't finished schoolgirl either. 

billy joel was so real when he said ''you got so much to do and only so many hours in a day''