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Category: Life
Me and my dad are like Dolores and Humbert. I don't know if he raped me to be honest, if he did and my memory suppressed it it still left a mark and made me hypersexual since I was 3/4 (I think?). All i really remember is that he liked taking shows with me and insisted on it saying it was natural, yet I remember feeling so uncomfortable and disliked it. Hes a pedophile, nasty old uglt child molest... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I don’t think I can become happy ever again. I can imitate the emotion, being around those that get me excited or doing things I enjoy, yet I doubt I can feel happy. I don’t know if I ever felt happy. Others might think I have, but that may be because they painted me in a view of me actually being happy because they were happy. Sometimes I subconsciously copy the things around me and it affects my... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
Nothing as ever really felt as good as harming myself. Cutting over things that upset me or anger me feels so grounding. Everything disappears when I slice my skin and I finally feel okay again and in control of my emotions instead of letting them become bigger than my body again. When I was in my period of cutting, I was so ecstatic and happy it’s almost bizarre. Frankly, I love it. It’s pleasing... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
Nurses are so rude and cruel when they don't care about you. My mom can be crying and screaming in pain claiming she can't even walk from back pain and they still yet scream and humiliate her and refuse to give her the right medicine aka an IV bag of morphine until they go through all the ones who don't work. We've been here for 3 hours, left so I can have a sleepover with my friend and now I'm st... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
I did some homework that took an all nighter and sent it to my assistant to print it just for her to print a totally different piece that is not mine and not as informative and descriptive. It's annoyed me so much I cried from anger. I can't understand why something like this is done, it's my work and it's work my grade so why did you print a piece of work that's not mine and not as informative as... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
My best friend just called me to just say how much he loves me and that how prioritizing me makes her happy since je was always told to prioritize himself yet never really could and honestly I was just smiling so much and walking around my room while he did that. To saver him from an awkward moment I told him to go back to the restaurant he’s at before his mom gets worried Its honestly one of the ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
People are terrifying. With an animal like a cat, you can take and befriend them and they won't judge you and love you. Yet humans are the opposite. Living in society is scary and I feel a constant inner fear of being around people and talking makes me so anxious and awkward. Humans are untameable and that's scary because I feel like someone who can be tamed so I just feel like prey in a field of ... » Continue Reading
Category: Food and Restaurants
Food makes me nauseous and eating makes me feel fat. I ate a waffle, ramen and now yogurt and I feel greedy for eating so much » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
I rlly miss my soulmate. I kept pushing her away from me cause being loved by her overwhelmed me but now i rlly miss her and want her back even tho its been like a lil over a year now and I still think about her and love her Wuh luh wuh situationships are not for the weak, this is why I even started sh’ing actually which is kinda dumbbbbbb » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Its hard being motivated to do things you like tbh. I rlly rlly rlyy rllyyyyy like drawing and writing, but I cant find my motivation to do either n I feel like such a burn out fraud » Continue Reading
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