Lolitaism

Me and my dad are like Dolores and Humbert. I don't know if he raped me to be honest, if he did and my memory suppressed it it still left a mark and made me hypersexual since I was 3/4 (I think?). All i really remember is that he liked taking shows with me and insisted on it saying it was natural, yet I remember feeling so uncomfortable and disliked it. Hes a pedophile, nasty old uglt child molester who already raped a 15 year old girl on my mother's bed before (whom just so happened to be the maids daughter). Really the only reason we left some years later is because he almost hit me in the face with a beer bottle. 

He treated me the same way, and I was a daddy's girl what absorbed all his attention whenever he was there. I know my mom once let us travel alone 2 times for awhile (I dont know if it was weeks or something). Who knows if he touched me while I was asleep or just didnt understand. It's so weird to relate to a situation that shouldn't even be relatable, that should be entirely fiction in the first place. Dolores even calls Humbert her dad

This is kind of depressing to talk about, but I feel really alone about it and never met anyone who could possibly relate or understand