Phemel★Redvelvet

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Put it out

Category: Blogging

(tw sh) guys I stopped cutting myself for like 1 year ago or smt, and it was very hard to stop bcs it's smt like vicious... But now I'm starting to hold myself to don't do it again, everything is terrible last days, last weeks, last month, everything is a shit, and I'm keeping all my feelings to myself bcs I can't speak ab my feelings w some1 anymore, it feels... Wrong?, but now it's starting to b... » Continue Reading

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Control myself

Category: Blogging

Today smt different and kinda not cool happened, when I got to school, 10 minutes after my mom called me basically 10 times, when I pick up her call she started to ask why I didn't answer, I said it was bcs I didn't have the cellphone in my hand, and was actually this my cellphone was on my backpack, ofc she get angry yeah, but wasn't just this, she started to ask why I was getting at school 30 mi... » Continue Reading

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Born in the wrong year

Category: Blogging

Somedays ago I was using Spacehey near to my friend from school, he saw and started to say how I was born in the wrong year, he said I like those emo things, 2000's vibes, bcs I use Spacehey and I say "hm now I gotta read some blogs" (for some reason this phrase got him), and I'm a "dirty bag teenager" and I give vibe of teenager at the 2000's, tbh it made me kinda happy, bcs I'd like to be born a... » Continue Reading

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It's my fault

Category: Religion and Philosophy

Sister can't sleep in our bedroom for like 2 days, in the middle of the night she wake up, go to mom bedroom and say "I can't sleep mommy can I sleep here?". So after it happens on the Halloween night, in the morning I asked mom if sister was fine and why she was sleeping in her bedroom not in ours, she gave me a look and said very angry "mb bcs some1 is bringing demons and bad things to urs bedro... » Continue Reading

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I want

Category: Blogging

Like y'all know I've been passing too much time here on Spacehey yeah, and idk I feel kinda sad bcs I see those people happy and enjoying the freedom like, I want to be free too, I'm happy bcs someone can be who they actually want to be, but I want this too so bad, BUT SO BAD, I want to go out w the clothes that I want, I want to act like I want, I want to listen the musics I like, I want to go ou... » Continue Reading

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I want a hug

Category: Life

I've been feeling kinda lonely last weeks, ig i want a hug, but i dont want to ask my friends for it bcs... idk, i have no idea whats wrong w me now, it feels like my heart is bleeding inside my chest, and its hurting. I want a hug, a long, warm and confortable hug. -PRV » Continue Reading

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Buddies from Spacehey

Category: Blogging

I never wrote smt ab people from spacehey, mb bcs i dont feel nothing bad ab them (just these weird people that post gore, i dont like them),but today i noticed smt.  Spacehey has been a "friend" for me lately, you know i can be myself here, and when i read what others post, i feel like they r my friends too, like idk, they speak ab their lifes or interesting things just like i do, and i can see t... » Continue Reading

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How the problem started

Category: Life

Well, since i feel confortable w spacehey im gonna tell some bads things that happened to me last weeks. Everything started when i got into a new school, my dream school, its na art school somewhere where i always wanted to study bcs i knew there people wouldnt jugde my art and my style, and i was right, there i felt confortable, i felt FREE to be myself; but my mom doesnt like that school (she ne... » Continue Reading

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I still alive

Category: Blogging

HIII, I know I disappeared for some days, but don't worry guys I still alive, I know I don't have fans to miss me here, I kinda just wanted to write smt here but I had no idea what to write, sooooo, that's it, I still here! » Continue Reading

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Overthinking pianist

Category: Music

I may not be the best, but I  try my best to play my piano, I don't have classes (I don't have money to pay them) so I kinda just do what looks right and what I see on internet; I have this piano for like 1 year, but only now that I started to understand how this isn't just a instrument. Piano has helped me a lot recently, I'm an anxious, pessimistic and mainly overthinking person, so I always loo... » Continue Reading

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An asexual talk

Category: Romance and Relationships

For a bunch of years I believed that there was smt wrong w me bcs I didn't feel anything for anyone, like, ofc I love my family (do I?) and my friends, but was never a BIG feeling, idk how to explain tbh, but I always knew that I wasn't like the other people.  Years passed and I find myself as Asexual (aroace actually), I was... Happy?, I put in my head that I wasn't normal and that I had some kin... » Continue Reading

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What would be?

Category: Life

I know I put on my layout that I'm not a big book girl, but I still read a lot of books actually (when I have time), and some time ago I read the book The midnight library.  This books was.... Something, something that made me think a lot ab my life (or what it could have been), I'll make a little resume of what this book's ab. -Basically, it's a girl that can read on books after she died, what wo... » Continue Reading

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