I'm questioning why I planned such a busy weekend after working a 50 hour week but I am having a good time so maybe I don't need to overthink it 😅. I ran into that networking guy at another event and we ended up catching a bite together after, but not as a date, just platonic and I think he realized he didn't actually feel that way about me too. Isn't it weird how people get an idea in their hea... » Continue Reading
Hello readers. It's a beautiful day to refuse lies: "I can be hurt by my co-workers, so I need to fear them." This is a lie. My co-workers cannot hurt me, no matter what they say or do. I am secure in my identity, and nothing they do can change that. They might not want to be on my team but I don't actually need them to be, because I'm empowered to do the work in front of me without their help... » Continue Reading
I keep falling asleep while writing every night. So I started earlier this time, let's see if it works. Ok my depression is gone. Just like that. Gone. I knew it would go away, and it did just like I said. So I'm thinking about getting rid of all social media (other than this). I already did away with Facebook years ago but I still have others. I have a strong desire to devolve to a less te... » Continue Reading
Just feel the need to write tonight. I've been having a bout of depression this past week, which for me consists of emotional numbness and inability to get excited about anything, with intermittent unprompted waves of despair and whipped cream on top. I do have a history of this but something in me has changed over the last few years. Before, when I would experience these feelings, I would think... » Continue Reading
I didn't post yesterday because I fell asleep while writing. But it's not much of a loss. It was a long stressful day at work and nothing much happened other than that. Today though, an acquaintance of mine gave a speech at an event and I wanted to show up and support. I met some new people there, and ended up going on a hike in the rain with some of them after. Then we all went to dinner toget... » Continue Reading
Wow what a day. Thursdays are always long for me because of work meetings, but I was especially tired today for some reason. After work I had dinner with friends at The Portal and there was a live band playing, most of whom I knew personally so it was cool seeing them perform, but I almost fell asleep in my chair. I hope I'm not coming down with something.. On my way out it got freezing and star... » Continue Reading
I'm so relaxed right now. I just got home from a crisp evening walk around my neighborhood. I had planned to go running on the trail behind my house but there was a shirtless man cracking a whip at the trailhead so I decided to do something else 😅. Today was one of my work-from-home days and as I often do, I went to the library for the last half of the day, just to get a change of scenery. My l... » Continue Reading
Hello readers, if you're out there. Not much going on today but I'll blog just for the heck of it. I'm currently sitting in the dark in my living room with just a night light listening to soft piano music. I need the sensory detox after a long day at work and running around in traffic. I had planned to go to a bar with friends tonight but ended up cancelling. I had the weirdest dream last night... » Continue Reading
I worked in-office today. I'm a hybrid employee and I work from home most of the time, so on-site days are always a blur of meetings and trainings and not a lot of time to actually work. I had ten minutes to walk to the gas station across the street and get two bean burritos from the hot case for lunch... they were glorious. It took me 40 minutes to get home instead of the usual 15 because of an... » Continue Reading
Happy Easter, Today, I drove three hours to visit my friend who doesn't get out much because he is in a wheelchair. He and his wife have been trying to set me up with this guy they know, so they invited him to dinner without telling me. It ended up being all attention on us talking to each other. Super awkward. I just kept being silly and making jokes. I guess that's what I do now when I'm ne... » Continue Reading
I've never really blogged before so here goes. I guess I'll just talk about my day. Today I slept in, had brunch with some friends, and then went to the local farmers market. I found some vegan soaps and some flavored vinegars that the seller told me could be used as drink mixes. One of my friends told me about a big concert coming to town that I was somewhat interested in. Apparently, it's al... » Continue Reading