i try so hard to go back to that panicked state during an episode simply because it makes me feel something that im pretty sure is real it feels real I think its real i want it to be real I cant do this again but I want to I just want attention im a little attention seeker IM NOT HIM I'm not him everything bad happens to him I'm not him I want people to see my flaws but not belittle and pity me be... » Continue Reading
it doesn't matter its insignificant what happened wasnt her fault I just need to forget forget forget forget forget forget FORGET the touch the feel the ensue her voice my choice I cant take it THEY CANT KNOW but its okay to post on here because nobody sees these anyways all my blogs have zero views so this is my diary new. WHY CANT HER MEMORY JUST LEAVE ME ALONE nine year olds should know better ... » Continue Reading
ever since I was a kid I'd always thought I had the best siblings in the world. Mainly I thought about my youngest older brother, I thought he was awesome. Even though I barely knew who he was. He used to get taken away in cop cars very often when I was younger, and we would visit him while he stayed in a group home, or treatment center, or visit him in a cell. Recently he had stayed with us for a... » Continue Reading
hi uhh my dog refused to go into the kitchen after i put her food in her bowl (shes a lil fatty and also hasnt eaten since lunch) and i think dogs can see ghosts so uhh house might be haunted!! thats cool » Continue Reading
sorry i forgot to blog ^n^ ive just been busy with homework and family stuff. Anyways!!! I've also gotten into writing more! But my sleep schedule is completely wack becuz of it T-T I might post sum of it to ao3 (or not lol idk yet) cuz some of the stuffz i got is kinda cool. I've got this story im writing called The Archivist, its about this fifteen or so year old boy whose is born in the 21st ce... » Continue Reading
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZORA!!!!!!!! she doesnt have spacehey and her foster parents dont let me see her and she wont see this but i wanted other ppl to know that its my awesome amazing super cool besties birthday today!2!@2221!1!! and shes turning 16 and if her foster parents let her then she can get her license!!1!1!!11!! forgot to finish writing this earlier but feb 4 is her birthday a » Continue Reading
i didnt go to school today!!! >:3 BUT its cuz sum kid threatened to shoot up the school yesterday, they already got him in custody but my mom said she wasnt comfy sending me to school cuz like- what if the guy has accomplices? `-` anyways idk if im going to school tmr but i think i am!! will update if I do! :] » Continue Reading