It's not like someone cares, but I still breathe. live is fucking exhausting, did you know? I fkng hate it but, What else can I do? On july 6 i turned 15 and life has only felt worse since then. When you're 15 you're not too old or too young. Almost every fkng pop teen angs » Continue Reading
today is May 24 and i did the must stupid fucking shit i ever did in my stupid fucking life. I hadn't smoked for 147 days, and today i ruined all that with a single cigarette. I had cried for 3 fucking hours and i realy thought than maybe just one would make me feel better. I dond't know if i made it, because richt now i can't feel anything. I told my boyfriend the truth and i'm sure he's never ha... » Continue Reading
This shit happened on friday of the last week, i had forgotten to write it down here. i has coming home from school, my older sister had arrived maybe 2 or 3 hours before. i was going to open the fucking door and the fucking key wouldn't turn. I tried again, and again, and again, and fucking again but fkng nothing. My sis tried to open the door and dind't make it either. She was trapped inside and... » Continue Reading
may 2, two weeks ago. i was in biology class feeling bad for myself, listening my favorite punk band. i felt fkng nauseous in the midle of the stupid fkng class, so i pushed my friedns to fuck off to get out as fucking fast i could to the bathroom. The god damn bathroom is on the other fucking side of the damn school. i couldn't turn off the music when i had already staeted to thow up like a drun » Continue Reading
Tomorrow i celebrate 1 month with my boyfriend, or to be more specific, in 3 hours. i feel a lot of things at the same time, things i don't fucking know how to handle. My heart, so fkng cols and rotten, is happy. Happy because i got him in my life, because he love me, because he decide be with me. At the same time, i feel so fucking scared, because it feels like a timer, like a countdown. Why wou... » Continue Reading