hi! i go by star online. im currently 19 years old and have been battling w an ACTUAL eating disorder for 2 years now and body image and eating issues for my entire life. currently a shut in with no job nor friends, so im coming here for companionship? (sort of) and to sort of vent my emotions and struggles everyday. the few things that i actually enjoy nowadays are probably games and manga/anime.... » Continue Reading
I went for a walk today but the weather is so fucking volatile at the moment. It can be sunny on second, rainy the next, sunny again and then a fucking storm. I ended up running back to my house because it started raining hard and the smell of the rain + the smell of the smoke coming out of people's chimneys was fucking unbearable. I was also FREEZING. I was feeling a little down today but it's o... » Continue Reading
TW mentions of ED Went to the movies with my ma today. I saw the new 'A Quiet Place' movie and was sort of underwhelmed? I did enjoy it but it was sort of lack-luster iykwim. I still had a lot of fun today :) I also got some new clothes that I actually felt looked GOOD on me omg!? Me and my ma went to have Korean and then caught up with my sister who I hadn't seen in a month, and then had Hangi sh... » Continue Reading
TW: Mentions of ED I know I said that I would fast but I just REALLY wasn't feeling up to it. Recently I've been feeling like utter crap and I'm also constipated so I had to get some fibre into my diet. My body is constantly heavy, my chest feels tight like there's something heavy on it and I constantly get pins and needles. It's not good. I think eating actual food starting next week compared to ... » Continue Reading
TW: Mentions of mental health and eating disorder. Listen, I have no idea what was in the air today but I was in a really good mood today. » Continue Reading
TW: Mentions of mental health and eating disorder. Didn't really struggle with not eating today again, but my body feels so fucking heavy. It was a struggle trying to get » Continue Reading
TW: Mentions of mental health and eating disorder Didn't really struggle much with my intake today but I feel like that's always the case when you're on those first few days of fasting. I have a feeling that I'll be feeling fucking miserable by the end of these five days but eh. I » Continue Reading