13/07/2024 Uneventful day

I went for a walk today but the weather is so fucking volatile at the moment. It can be sunny on second, rainy the next, sunny again and then a fucking storm. I ended up running back to my house because it started raining hard and the smell of the rain + the smell of the smoke coming out of people's chimneys was fucking unbearable.  I was also FREEZING.

I was feeling a little down today but it's on days that I have to remind myself that there will be up's and down's but the overall trajectory things are going in is up. I'm trying my best to stay positive. Not fake positivity, I'll still allow myself to feel upset but I'm just trying to be more rational about it. Can't guarantee I'll face my emotions the same with any rationality when I'm PMSing though lol.

My room is a fucking pigs hen at the moment since I've been a little unmotivated to really do anything. But I'm hoping to get back into the habit of cleaning twice a week again next week. I also need to fix my sleep schedule since I've been sleeping at around 7am lately and that makes it difficult to get anything meaningful done during the day (shopping, washing, etc.) Not to mention the fact that I'm perpetually exhausted.

I don't have much to say today but I think journaling has been really good for me. It helps me to see days as more than just a number in a month iykwim. I feel a bit more proud of myself when I read back on my experiences everyday and acknowledge that I made it through that day no matter how difficult it was for me. It makes me feel a lot more present in the moment.

Bit of a short entry but I'm going to go play some Overwatch, good night.