His name is Soup and he is a handsome boy https://ibb.co/fVBF2x4j There's nothing behind those eyes https://ibb.co/jZRhXpbw Sport mode (he's ok in this pic dw I turned his ears back to normal after the pic) censored my feet because idk if my friend is stalking me in this account and he wants my feet pics (kaito if you're seeing this hello :) https://ibb.co/d49whDm6 » Continue Reading
I hate being sick sm, like sure, I can skip school but UUUGGGHHHHH EVERYTHING. IS. SO. UNCOMFORTABLE. I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP CUZ I CAN'T BREATHE. MY THROAT HURTS WHICH MAKES SWALLOWING A CHORE, SO FOOD IS A NO-GO. Better yet, my mom didn't buy me medicine yet so I have to wait until 2 AM for my medicationvhsslhendkdnd I I'm gonna lose it » Continue Reading
I hate how I keep rambling about how I'm so lonely yet I don't "put myself out there" if that makes sense. Most of the people I meet don't understand me too, what's the point. I want someone to be as weird as I am. I hated people back then but when I try to talk to people, I always make a mistake and then I shamefully crawl back to my bed like a filthy cockroach. » Continue Reading
Someone finally dug me up from my grave (ty Gregor) and now I'm back :) Things that have happened since I was gone: - Date my long time crush (and broke up with him a couple of months after) - Got my grades up - Made some friends (and immediately stopped talking to them like months after because they were racist and » Continue Reading
Guess what? Mom just allowed me to buy scissors! Usually I am banned from buying any sharp object for various reasons but omg you do not need to know why I'm so happy :D I get happy at some of the small things in life tbh :) » Continue Reading
The school year in my country is about to start and I'm getting hella nervous af I have no idea who my new classmates are (tbh I don't really care, I'm not interested in making new friends in a country with horrible people) But I'm excited because a new school year means buying new school supplies :D Also, mom lets me have a walk after school and I'm kinda excited about that too :) » Continue Reading
Yk I know it would be kinda fucked up but I kinda want to be in Silent Hill I just want to see the manifestations of my deepest fears and trauma Maybe I'd die but it would still be kinda hella cool :P » Continue Reading
My school life is just so fucked up lmao like my grades are considered bad (they're like a B+ in my country and that's considered bad) I also can't make friends for the life of me, I don't want to leave my room because I'm so fucking terrified of people. I'm just watching my old friends have good grades, get girlfriends/boyfriends, having a good social life. And I'm just stuck in my room until I r... » Continue Reading
So the school year is almost ending around here and idk how to feel about it tbh. I've never made any friends here and there weren't any good memories in this school :v I will probably miss my brother's friends, they were kinda cool Another thing since it's almost summer break; I kinda want to create a Youtube channel where I post actual videos. Like the same kind of stuff I post on my blogs but i... » Continue Reading
So I just went to therapy and a girl just told me that she likes my hair??? I mean I was feeling really shitty today because of stuff but that made me smile tbh bc nobody really compliments me :) » Continue Reading
A little vent, I guess Basically, I live with a pretty horrible mom. She's abusive and usually hits me if she gets too angry. I confessed to her that I almost killed myself but she got mad at me and said something like how I'm torturing her and stuff. I also got a 1 hour lecture about how gambling relieves stress for her and how it isn't any different with me playing video games. » Continue Reading