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TW: suicidal thoughts
Category: Life
If only i could die . Wow . That’d be so nice . Fuck me . Fuck everything . Fuck this weekend . Fuck my life . Everything has gone to shit . » Continue Reading
Shoya
"Being a silly trans guy"
I’m 18 and a trans male! (Ftm)
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ANOTHER ONE WTF
Category: Life
hi . i making another one ig idk . I wish i didnt have to go through this crap . im sitting here crying for 23 minutes bc i miss my dad . I'm currently in hell rn. i wanna get blown up so bad . i want to get ran over or some shit . i dont want to even do anything this weekend. i dont want this weekend to happen . i want to hide away . fuck my life fr . fuck everything . i hate this weekend, i hate... » Continue Reading
about my dad again
Category: Life
Im doing a essay for one of my classes and im listing to music as i do it . then out of nowhere a sad song that remind me of my dad comes on and i start sobbing . also his 3 years of him dying is coming up this weekend . dude . i just want him back . why does my life have to be like this . im sobbing as i type this . i miss him so much oh my god . fuck everything. » Continue Reading
My dad
Category: Life
I miss my dad so much . I wish he was here . I wish he wasn’t dead . Why did he have to leave me . I know its not his choice . He didn’t want to die . I still miss him so much . I want him to hug me . I want him to tell me everything will be okay . I want to sit in his lap . I want to give him a kiss . I want to see him smile . Gosh . Why cant he come back to me . Cant life fuck off for once and l... » Continue Reading
. Tw: talk about suicidal thoughts
Category: Life
Who am i . Why am i still here . Why haven’t i died yet . Why does the world spin . Fuck . Beside me going crazy . I had a good Halloween . I was miku and got so much candy . Yummy . But fr though . . Why haven’t i died yet . » Continue Reading
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… TW: suicidal thoughts
Category: Life
Im sorry for making so many posts like this . . I want to lay down in a field of grass , look up at the stars for one last time and then close my eyes and die . That would be nice . . Would be lovely way to die . . Why does the world treat me like this . . » Continue Reading
Cant sleep . TW : self harm and suicidal thoughts
Category: Life
Its 2:56 am as i write this . I cant sleep . I miss my dad . I want him to hold me and tell me everything will be okay . I want to lay in bed with him and watch movies with him . I want to hear his voice again . I forgot how is voice sounds like . I miss his cooking . I want his bread that he made in his bread maker . I want to make homemade pizzas with him again . I want him to make dinner again ... » Continue Reading
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Ums . . Tw : thinking of kms and harming self
Category: Life
Hi . . How do i even start this. . So idk . Ive been thinking of suicide thoughts again . Like “yo i really should of died the last time i tried to kill myself .” Mostly bc of horrible things . Like i realized i actually have a hard time caring for myself now im in college cus i have no help and im just used to taking care of my siblings and basically being their parent since like 2020 . First its... » Continue Reading
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I miss my dad.
Category: Life
Ig this is kinda like a post dedicated to my dad . In two weeks it will be the 3 year anniversary of my dad passing . I miss him so much . He was better then my mom . Didn’t give me trauma ever and would actually listen if we said “i dont like loud noises” . Things like that . All in all , he was amazing . The sweetest guy as well . He would say “i have no friends but thats okay . All i need is my... » Continue Reading
ugh.
Category: Life
Gf still hasnt talked to me since Tuesday. Im hoping that somehow i see her walking around campus to know shes okay at least or idk. Maybe im gonna stop texting her. Im probably getting annoying to her. I also cried cus i really miss her. Also will be 3 years since my dad died in 2 weeks. Why does life have to suck rn oh me gee. :( » Continue Reading
Flip my baka life.
Category: Life
TW BTW . TALKING ABOUT DOING HARM TO SELF. My life Has not been so haha hehe silly yayaya ! Its been sad . ALLLLL this week . no joke . I miss my grandma , i miss my dog , i miss my gf , i miss my dad . I havnt seen my dog in 2 months bc of being in college . Also have no motivation to do anything so ive been inside my dorm all weekend. I really wish i could be happy . i mean i am but only for mo... » Continue Reading
More sad bc idk.
Category: Life
I miss my gf so so much . Maybe she hates me . Maybe she never wants to talk or see me again . Have no clue what it is . Ive just been sad a lot . Crying alot . Maybe im overthinking . Idk . I just miss her and love her and i really really really wanna talk to her ☹️ I also really miss my dad as well . When will things be happy ? I thought going to college and getting away from my horrible home i... » Continue Reading