My dad

I miss my dad so much . I wish he was here . I wish he wasn’t dead . Why did he have to leave me . I know its not his choice . He didn’t want to die . I still miss him so much . I want him to hug me . I want him to tell me everything will be okay . I want to sit in his lap . I want to give him a kiss . I want to see him smile . Gosh . Why cant he come back to me . Cant life fuck off for once and let me be happy ?