ANOTHER ONE WTF

hi . i making another one ig idk . I wish i didnt have to go through this crap . im sitting here crying for 23 minutes bc i miss my dad . I'm currently in hell rn. i wanna get blown up so bad . i want to get ran over or some shit . i dont want to even do anything this weekend. i dont want this weekend to happen . i want to hide away . fuck my life fr . fuck everything . i hate this weekend, i hate myself and i hate again i hate myself . if i could , i would want to just reverse this crap so my dad can be alive again . i want to just be whimsy for the rest of my life . not deal with this . god fucking hell, can i not have ONE bad thing happen to me anymore .