about my dad again

Im doing a essay for one of my classes and im listing to music as i do it . then out of nowhere a sad song that remind me of my dad comes on and i start sobbing . also his 3 years of him dying is coming up this weekend . dude . i just want him back . why does my life have to be like this . im sobbing as i type this . i miss him so much oh my god . fuck everything.