I have always been the most dramatic, hysterical, emotional, and sentimental person in my family but this is something more. I don't know how to stop catering to my misery when it's all that I have left to feel. There's no relief from all these emotions and there is no just leaving it for another day. I'm constantly bombarded with thoughts of you that I don't want. I spend hours laying on my floor... » Continue Reading
Although medical publications contain examples of clinical vampirism (the compulsive desire to self-mutilate and drink said blood, affinity with the dead, and uncertain identity) it is unlikely that this was the cause for the myth to be started. I believe it is more likely that the myth of v » Continue Reading
My love for you knows no bounds, like a child finally getting to explore the woods behind their house. How cautiously they'll approach the forest edge before looking in and getting so consumed by love for the trees and the moss and the ferns that the child forgets the fear and plunges in. Oh how the child runs into the forest to embraced by only thorns and briers. The child feels no pain when stuc... » Continue Reading
If I had my way and the world was just you would my Valentine. I would've spent weeks pouring over the same pencil drawings wondering if they would hold the same significance to you as they do me. I would fuss over letters and phrasing, never quite happy with any of my work. I would tell you I think of that day more than any I've experienced, that it fills the hollow space in my thoughts. It was n... » Continue Reading
14 year old me doesn't know it but if she was listening, I'd let her know that all the deep breathing she's been doing isn't for nothing. That the late nights laying in bed listening to the alarm clock radio before falling asleep will have her memorizing the words to songs she doesn't even like yet. That teenaged skin is something she can shed, even if it isn't entirely brand new. That the body sh... » Continue Reading
If I had three lives I'd marry you in two, the other? Perhaps that life over there at Starbucks, sitting alone, writing- a memoir, maybe a novel or a poem similar to this one. A small apartment with a view of the river, and books- LOTS of books- and time to read. Friends to laugh with, and a man sometimes, for a weekend, to remember what skin feels like when it's alive. I'd be thinner in that life... » Continue Reading
Sometimes I get the feeling maybe life is going so terribly because I deserve to feel that pain again. I did outrun it for so long, I am not quite sure what I was expecting to happen. I definitely wasn't expecting to feel so hurt. It's like someone came in while I was asleep and removed my heart replacing it with greebriers. It pains me to take a breath and to move around the room. I feel soulless... » Continue Reading
I think I should start everything off with like a warning. I do enjoy talking to people but I can be rude and kinda hostile at first. Definitely not looking for love or anything for a lot of personal reasons. I just wanna chat n goob n have fun. Trying to find a way to let go of everything n maybe this will help me. Willing to talk about anything and everything almost whenever. pls dont message me... » Continue Reading