"having an existencial crisis"
twenty one, usa, she/her, they/them, queer
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Category: Writing and Poetry
how do you mourn someone you don't know, someone who never could have existed in the first place? i often wonder who i would've been, had i grown up in a stable home, with parents who loved me, with emotions i could understand. would she dress the same way i dress? dark and gloomy, thick cat eyed liner on her face, lips painted black? or would she dress preppy? bright colors, no makeup covering he... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
you fear of disappointment is such a funny paradox; and yet despite knowing this, it always ends the same. it wraps its jaws around my mind and bites down with incredible strength, paralyzing me, ultimately ending with disappointment. the worst is when it comes to disappointing you, someone i care so greatly about and i feel as if you could care about me. someone like you interested in the likes o... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
even as a twenty one year old i still say, "when i grow up" i always catch myself; lest i feel like an idiot, or even worse, let them know i dont know what the fuck im doing here. but it was on my way to work that it hit me that maybe i was, or maybe the expectations society gives to adults is unbearably draining and leaves l » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i went to trixie and katya's live show a couple days ago, they came to my state; kind of unbelievable given where i live and the new anti lgbtq laws being passed days before they showed up. i saw so many walks of life, so many gender identities, sexualities, and ways of expression; people that were so openly proud to be themselves in a state where the idea of being gay is fine but best to keep it ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
ive been dealing with a lot of emotional and physical stress no thanks to an emotionally abusive mother. ive learned that tinitus can actually worsen under stress and of course the ringing in my ears is all ive heard for the last three days. so after my mom left for work i made some white pine needle tea from the tree i planted when i was a kid, and added healing energy with my rose quartz crystal... » Continue Reading
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