burdened company

      i sit with her in silence; she is the one constant in my life

to not know her, is to be a stranger to myself

she whispers to me, awful things, teaches me cruelty, anger

she feeds my hate for the injustice in the world

i always hear her, her soft voice sounds like screams in my head

i cant escape her no matter how hard i try

leaving her behind feels weightless

leaving her behind feels scary and unnatural 

i hate her 

yet i find comfort in the thorns she tangles me in

who am i without her

she is pain, she is misery, she is anger

                                       she is changeless