Me and my girlfriend are going on holiday! We're going for 6 days and I'm so happy!!!! We're really looing forward to doing new stuff with each other and going on our first holiday together. I've also just finished my dissertation and I'm relaxed and relieved now :)))) can't wait to get my grade back and hopefully get what I've really been aiming for » Continue Reading
Hi guys! My birthday was yesterday and it was really good! I went trampolining with my girlfriend and then we went to her place to get changed, pick up the cake she got me and go out to eat with my friends. I was so excited but nervous because my friends don't know each other and my girlfriend had only met one of my friends, but it went really well and everyone spoke and got along :)) Before we we... » Continue Reading
Hi guys! Just to add another update, it’s my birthday in 2 weeks and my girlfriend’s getting me a cake. She’s really sweet and generous and I’m so lucky to be with such a beautiful woman. It’s been almost 3 and a half months and I want to be with her for even longer. I want to stay with her and grow and become better with her and as my own person. I’ll let you guys know how my birthday goes! I’m t... » Continue Reading
Hi guys! I haven't been on here in a while but just to give an update, I'm in a relationship! I've been with this beautiful girl for over a month and a half and I hope that it lasts for a very long time. I'm really happy with her and she has let me be a better version of myself. I've become more expressive and creative and I want to improve on myself as well as make her happy and help her progress... » Continue Reading
I know that I said I was gonna take a break and be alone but I have BPD and I get lonely LOL. I was dating someone for just under 2 months before she ended things which upset me for a bit coz I thought I wasn't good enough for anyone, but just before I stopped talking to her I started talking to another girl and thankfully we're still talking. She's very sweet and she's intense but I don't think I... » Continue Reading
Just an update on my mood, I'm still depressed and everyday I feel broken and worn down. I barely speak to anyone and I've deleted social media and all I do is go to work and come back home. It's become so bad that I haven't taken out the bin in the kitchen and there's flies in there. I'm scared of flies so I couldn't go in again after that. I haven't really spoken to anyone but I called someone i... » Continue Reading
I've only been in one relationship and it was terrible and abusive lol. It was definitely not something I deserved even though it feels like it sometimes. I did recently speak to someone else that I thought I could've been with, but I made a really big step and ended things coz I didn't feel happy. She was nice sometimes and we made each other laugh a lot, but she said some questionable things tha... » Continue Reading
Just wanted to blog coz I haven't in a while. I'm feeling empty and depressed and I'm probably gonna enter a depressive episode I just feel it coming. I hope everyone's doing ok though and I hope this feeling passes coz I feel so drained. » Continue Reading
Just thinking about how bad season 2 is especially in comparison to season one. Euphoria was so good especially with the special episodes, but season 2 has no rewatchability apart from like maybe the first episode. It's less cohesive and it feels like so much happened but nothing happened at the same time. I feel like they were juggling too many characters and Maddie getting less screen time was s... » Continue Reading
I wanna start learning how to drive and I think if I look for a cheap car it will motivate me to learn how to drive and to also get a job because I've never had one before. I struggle a lot with social anxiety and feeling overwhelmed so I'm really afraid of working but I'm trying to find an online job so there's less interaction and I don't have to leave the house. It would also be good to have ex... » Continue Reading
I spoke to my GP about my intrusive thoughts and he sent me stuff so I could self refer to get therapy again LOL I've had like 6 or 7 therapists and I've only just turned 20. I'm glad that I can get help again coz it's been making me feel distressed » Continue Reading
I’m in France with one of my friends and we’re going to the Champs-Élysées and the Eiffel Tower today :) we’re also going to eat as well. It’s kinda scary to be 20 today but I’m excited because 20 is young and my youth isn’t over. There’s lots of stuff I can do still and I’m glad that the first 2-3 days will be here » Continue Reading