When I woke up, I asked myself, "What am I here for?" For friendship, for learning, for personal growth? Meaning of life? To have a good time? To evolve or shrink? The shame leaked into my dreams. That's when the real torture happens. When does one feel "true" love? As in, the emotion of loving someone. I can't even describe it. I don't think I've ever felt "love". Sure, I've been in romantic rela... » Continue Reading
1) WHAT IS YOUR IDEA OF PERFECT HAPPINESS? Being in a forest. 2) WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR? That my life amounts to nothing, and no effort can raise me from the hole I’ve buried myself in. That the cycle is permanent now, that I will always be abandoned. 3) WHAT IS THE TRAIT YOU MOST DEPLORE IN YOURSELF? I’m too neurotic to function properly without some kind of obsession. 4) WHAT IS THE TRAIT... » Continue Reading
When the body collides with the ground without permission, the days turn soft and gray. Odd, the sensation of crumpled legs, my curled form writhing in nauseating pain in a room of young eyes. Pain, public momentary mortality flares through the openings of muscle and bone, brings out the humility. I am taken back decades of mankind’s actions as those, now am confident in my label, my friends, comp... » Continue Reading
Joyous times granted once for this crippled fool, who’s mind is so weary and fickle that even a room full of laughter leaves him wandering back to the self-made axe, to chop away again at his dying will to keep smiling. Even with good company, a hearty stomach and a warm side the old fool weeps at his misfortune of having to be a mortal, time-bound flesh mound. To what end will this pity tear at t... » Continue Reading
Decker - Skeletons with Beautiful Skins So in the last post I mentioned an artist called Dr. Steel - this album is (I believe) one of his earliest works, way before the Dr. Steel persona was uploaded. In a previous interview he talked about NIN being one of his inspirations and I hear it 1000%. Unbelievably this was the first time he used a computer to » Continue Reading