The morning started with me coughing for air. I've had troubles in the past with my breathing, frequent dizzy spells during my younger years in class. Now, I feel myself becoming more and more frustrated to no end, I feel it in my lungs, my whole chest. I am trying all in my power to stay afloat, and the person I've accepted into my life, I've allowed them to step deeper into the ocean of my life ... » Continue Reading
One of my five items I so kindly requested to dear old Saint Nick was the book. The book that has been floating around the ocean of the world wide web. The book that I mentioned to a comrade on a whim in our conversation, to give me a surprised look, whistle, and say "good luck, that'll make you miserable'. No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai provided another mirror into my own way of life, quite dra... » Continue Reading
Ever since I turned 18, birthdays have been strange for me. Maybe the impending doom of reaching an age I don’t intend to, or the fact that I’ve sabotaged my life to an irredeemable degree, placing me in an idealistic cryo-chamber that will always keep my body and mind somewhat lagging in terms of quality of life. For me, today is a day of self-reflection, of what I could have done and what I need... » Continue Reading
Done with blue pen. I really like how these turned out. Right, back to my attempts to memorize numbers and words… (Different angle) If I’d “kin” anyone, it would be Steve from Big Top Burger…(or Mae from Night in the Woods) » Continue Reading
I have finally watched Mishima: A Life in Four Chapters - as part of a course I am taking this semester. Truthfully the most engaged I have been in a course, in a long while. The film itself was a treat to the eyes and to the mind, an elixir of man's art and torture. I do not wish to say "that is so me", however I cannot help but relate his sacrifice to art akin to my own struggles. Yukio Mishim... » Continue Reading