"Questioning my life choices.. "
Mentally Overwhelmed, Emotionally Fâ¨cked
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Category: Life
I'm constantly torn between collapsing in on myself and raging at the universe for doing this to me. Honestly, I don't really feel angry. It's more of a query. A wondering. I want to answers, but know I'll never get any answers. One parent is a narcissistic a hole that refuses to face everything she unleashed on her kids ( mainly me, who she made live her childhood. The cycle repeated in a real fu... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I've always had a complicated relationship with my own existence. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
...adjusting to my meds is absolutely tiring. My neurologist is having me slowly increase my dose of Lamotrigine until I get to 100mg. Which, sucks. But at least I'm not dealing with seizures or issues with Bipolar Disorder. I just wish it didn't make me so drowsy. It was supposed to help my insomnia, but I adjusted so quick » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Sometimes, I wonder what the point of this all is. I've lost so many friendships and no longer speak with my family. Life seems empty without my Dad. I'm dealing with so many health and mental issues, it's gotten to the point where being awake is a literal chore. I simply exist to many my circle happy, and take care of my puppy. I wouldn't bother with any of these if I didn't have them. Which, I k... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Adjusting to these meds is frustrating, I'm thankful my neurologist helped me to get back on them. ( I've been fighting for years to get my meds back because without them I am NOT well ) I knew there would be a period of adjustment... ..but the way my body is responding is outlandish. I kept waking up at 2-3 am on the dot, scarfing down a meal and, then passing back out for an hour before being un... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
To Dad,.. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you. Messages left unanswered, calls ignored. It wasn't done out of malicious intent. I couldn't face the fact that you'd soon not be here. That there was something out of our control pulling you away from me.. It hurt that there was nothing I could do. No matter how hard I wanted to pull the poison out of your veins, and swallow it to protect you. Somet... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
Fck her. The other night, I was accepting that an ex "friend" was seriously putting my life at risk…for years. I spent so many years assisting her while she was enduring some upsetting health problems. ( Diabetic, and she had eye surgery. ) I have an incredibly weakened immune system, and she » Continue Reading
Category: Life
No one warns you how lonely and isolating being disabled is. It sucks to watch valued and adored friendships slip through your fingers because health issues crop up. "I'm sorry, I can't hang out today." "Please understand, I'm in a lot of pain right now. I wish I could join you, but.." So many moments were spent hunched » Continue Reading
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