threres gotta be someone. like, ONE OTHER PERSON OUT THERE who feels this way too. like i can't get off because it's all i have. like i don't know how to put these things away, and when i try i just come back to them. because of some like fomo or something. these social medias and what nots. i need to get offline. for like ever lmao. but thats not gonna happen until i DIE. i seriously dont know h... » Continue Reading
hello spacehey. using the theme again because i haven't used it for a post in so long. well i actually haven't made a post here in so long in general because i've been having so much fun on tumblr!!!! until i wasn't. well okay i am still having fun but it slowly started to consume me in a similar way that every other social media has. so lately it hasn't been that fun. so why not come to my venti... » Continue Reading
my skin is weirdly hot a lot of the time. it's weird. sometimes i'll touch my arm and it'll literally burn my hand. i feel crazy. like am i just crazy? is that a real thing that happens? it feels real i know it's real but what if i'm wrong and it's not even real and i'm CRAZY!!!????! i don't know. my face feels really weird. right now. still depressed. but like duh that's kinda how depression work... » Continue Reading
this is so funny. i know it shouldn't be funny i should be a lot more upset about this. i am honestly more upset about the fact that i now have to deal with it more than i am upset about it happening at all. i don't feel like dealing with this lol. i am too unserious to deal with this serious shit. this is bad. some WEIRDOOOO took my art and edited the text and put a weird DUMB ASS ai dub over it... » Continue Reading
i had a mental breakdown in the bathroom of my sisters house the other day. i felt this thing coming for weeks. like i just knew at some point all the shitty feelings i've been feeling were gonna explode sooner or later. there's been so many times where i felt like i was gonna cry but nothing came out so i just sat silently. empty. kinda embarrassing that it happened at my gyatt damn sister's hou... » Continue Reading
this is a thinly veiled cry for help. lol. there's no doubt in my mind that i've mentioned this already but i don't know if i've ever explained it? i more of just complained about it. ion know. i am extremely, EXTREMELY self destructive. to like, a very strange degree. i don't understand it in the slightest. i go out of my way to make myself suffer. do things that hurt. purposefully NOT do the thi... » Continue Reading
omg i love it. I LOVE BLOGGINGGGGGG. POSTING ON INSTAGRAM MAKES ME WANNA DIE. pposting on tumblr? I CAN POST MY ART AND YAP. AND SOMEONE MIGHT READ IT BECAUSE EVERYRONE ELSE YAPS TOO!!!!! i went on an art account and they have threads on threads on of long ass character analysis type shits. AND I WAS READING THEM SHITS!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE I LIKE TO READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 AND THEY HAD SOME BA... » Continue Reading
it's so weird. i don't even like instagram, which is why i delete it so much. it makes me so damn miserable. i compare myself to every artist on there. i doomscroll. and i don't even have any real friends except for one and we only talk so often. so like yeah no shit i should delete it and never get it back and then my quality of life would improve exponentially. but there's this one teensy littl... » Continue Reading
you FOOLS! i just like the look of lucky star. i never even finished the damn anime! plus i haven't seen it in YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T REMEMBER SHIT ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've had this theory for a little while now. i'm not upset about it i just think it's funny. i do think i'm right about this because almost every time i get a new friend request and i check their account, lucky star is... » Continue Reading
i really like blogs. i like looking up something and then one of the google search results are a blog reveiwing or talking abpuit the thing. like a few weeks ago when i looked "what to do with strawberries" because i wanted to make some typa strawberry centric breakfast (i ended up not having anything to use and just ate them plain lol) and i ended up on some ladies cooking blog. Or like just now ... » Continue Reading
i'm pretty sure it was under a youtube comment section about a video o why you shouldn't go to art school, one of the commenters said something about how if your art is just inspired by other artists and not by your own experiences tthen you can't like idk make your own art or something like that? like it won't be original or i don't know i can't remember the fucking quote i was tired and doom wa... » Continue Reading
the title sums it up entirely lol. why the hell am i making an entire blog post dedicated to a situation that can be summed up in one sentence!? i don't know. i am just. not knowing of much right now. my brain is fried. like really doesn't work that well anymore. has it ever worked well is a mystery to me. i've always been a little not right in the head. even when i was a kid. i was off. just a ... » Continue Reading