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i loved you because you were like me. it was easy to get along with you because our minds think alike. that's probably why it hurts so much, right? You said it yourself. You understand how I feel, and you would feel the same if you were me. Isn't it obvious? How could I love someone that knows exactly how I feel and doesn't do anything about it? If I were you, and you were me, what would you want ... » Continue Reading
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every emotion is conflicted inside me. anger. bitterness. resentment. regret. care. betrayal. love. adoration. want. I've wanted you to want me back so bad. I know this has never been the case, but now, agter everything... it just feels so stupid. even if you did, I don't know if I want you anymore. It feels like a breakup but we were never even together and I'm the only one of us feeling any of t... » Continue Reading
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i want things to be like they were, like they used to. but they never will, because you all failed me, and you couldn't even say sorry about it. it's fine if you tried, but you could've said "I'm sorry it ended up like this" it doesn't have to be anyone's fault, and no one has to take the blame, but I'd appreciate it if you were sorry for the situation, sorry that I'm left behind, sorry that we're... » Continue Reading
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restless sleep, broken dreams. my heart still hurts from yesterday's wound, even though my dream was "normal". you weren't there. i was left behind in my dream, too. i wandered alone through many places, and then, i actually found you. you seemed happy to see me, and stayed with me. you wanted to wander around that mall and look for others. I guess even in my dreams, I'm not enough for you. I've n... » Continue Reading
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that's me. i wanted us to go together so bad that i even gave you money for the tickets. you made it, and i didnt. i feel so fucking stupid. why did i care or try? you only made it because of me, and you couldn't even help me back? did you even want to go with me? or did you just use me for your own benefit? did this ever mean anything to you? i feel so stupid. at least I didn't give you money fo... » Continue Reading
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i liked what you said to me today. i finally read (and answered) your message. I didn't reply too much because I'm the one who got hurt. you respected and understood that, and i appreciate that. but you've hurt me, and i wish you'd do something, anything. say something, ask me to go out somewhere, anything. do i have the one who looks for you even though I'm the one who got hurt? you felt guilty, ... » Continue Reading
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I thought it'd hurt more to feel backstabbed by nearly all of my friends. I guess it doesn't hurt that much because deep inside it's something I've always expected. They don't hate me, but they all care more about themselves, or about other people. It's not the first time I've been the only one left behind, this is a feeling I'm quite used to. It's painful to know the people you trusted don't care... » Continue Reading
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my chem tickets tomorrow. nervous. will we both make it? i want to go with you so bad. » Continue Reading
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am i in love with you or with the idea of you? i have thought about this before, and the conclusion is always devastating: it's always you. the idea of you is nice to imagine or dream of. the leaves falling in autumn, the cherries blossoming in spring. but the mundane days with you, getting high, laughing, watching tv and lounging in my bed...those are the days that drive me crazy. walking around... » Continue Reading
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you're made of porcelain but your heart is made of flesh maybe my heart is porcelain hard exterior but so easy to break. too delicate for my own good i miss the mundane days I'd spend with you. the stupid talks, the heartfelt laughs. I miss spending every day with you. i knew i was doomed when i started missing you. when i started noticing your absence and taking your presence for granted. when w... » Continue Reading
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the transition from colors by halsey to demo lovers by mcr ... absolutely diabolical. What a playlist I've made. » Continue Reading
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I like being higher than the clouds. Picking up my testosterone today. I can't help but imagine what you'll say. Am I allowed to dream?! I think that as long as I know that'll never happen, it'll be fine. Reality is often different from what we wish, isn't it? I've been thinking about a distinction you can only make in Spanish. Es que amar y querer no es igual Amar es sufrir querer es gozar El ... » Continue Reading
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