So I've started feeling a bit more bitter and lonely again, which is kind of annoying. I shouldn't be such a sour pest but it's its eh. I've been playing a lot more rimworld and games like that. I'm happy as hell that adv mode for dwarf fortress beta is out, but I'm not gonna lie, it's sad that so many menus are inaccessible. There's an oddly large gap between who I am and want to be, along with h... » Continue Reading
I keep making so many mistakes lately, like really odd or bad ones. I went on a few 'dates' with a girl and we drank and all that stupid teenage stuff, I knew she was using me. I still feel hurt despite that, I feel stupid. I need to learn to be a better person I think I think I might be manipulative, due to how quickly I pick up and discard people. They're bad people, that's my only justification... » Continue Reading
Well, I'm doing better. I'm no longer so mixed up about so much anymore! I don't think many people are listening/reading these so idrk why I brought that up, but I'm doing much better overall. I've been just focusing on playing video-games and trying to live a little more second to second. I still think I'm messed up inside right now, but I don't think it'll hinder me anymore. I'm going to be... » Continue Reading
I think I am losing it right now. I feel perpetually sick, and near constantly upset. I want to just dissolve into someone else and just cease to be for a little. I wanna just be [BLANK]'s partner, not a person anymore. I'm so tired and just drained. I have a psat test tomorrow and a math test, I hate school right now. I can't stand it anymore, I want to just drop out but my mom would be mad. Ki... » Continue Reading
I had to write a handful of like little things for my fucking one act play class so I wrote like six, gonna be just posting them all here lol. Feel free to diss me for anything about them btw; "Your name flutters away from my cracked lips, as blood flows through me more viciously than ever before. It slams through my veins a crimson stampede in your name. My soul flares with heat that overshad... » Continue Reading