Life and junk 2 of however many I end up with

So I've started feeling a bit more bitter and lonely again, which is kind of annoying. I shouldn't be such a sour pest but it's its eh. I've been playing a lot more rimworld and games like that. I'm happy as hell that adv mode for dwarf fortress beta is out, but I'm not gonna lie, it's sad that so many menus are inaccessible. There's an oddly large gap between who I am and want to be, along with how I view myself.