I thought if I asked him to reject me now, it would help take that pit of feelings away from my stomach. But it only made things stronger and worse, i still have feelings for him! I know DEEP DOWN, I still got it in me but the little btch behind me, is scared like a little girl trapped in the fken dark closet at the my old dark home. I've never cried for someone, not ever my ex-bf, yet I'm crying » Continue Reading
I'm an independent woman, who has had to lead her entire life. The last thing I want to do is also lead in my romantic relationship. I need a man who will allow me to surrender my masculine energy by being the leader, being the alpha and allowing me to fully embrace my feminine soft side. Bring down my walls, to let out my soft girl in me. The love girl. The giggly girl. The girl who is afraid to ... » Continue Reading
I wish i wasn't so scared to say thing like these to you but here i am writing on media n blogs. I never told him this, but sometimes i just lay down and imagine all the possibilities of us in my head. simple things like watching movies, cuddling, doing late night food runs, talking about our future, and taking random drives at night. i just miss and want to be with him. But I guess he doesn't wan... » Continue Reading