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Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
i had a strange dream. i was walking along the railway tracks and choosing a place where i could end things quickly. when i wanted to get onto the right track just before the train, something prevented me from doing so and kept insisting that i had to keep living, over and over again. i ran away from that voice and tried to choose a different way to die, but... i never managed to do it. i woke up ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Today was an unusually good day. I didnt even feel like dying, and i didnt hate myself. Wow. » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I Don't know.. This thing started to take shape when I was 13. It’s been like that year after year. I’m just surprised I’m still alive. But I love you and everyone else. That’s why I can’t just leave like this. I wish I had a desire to live, but for now it’s just uncertainty. boiler. A hole in the chest that weighs a ton, but is, at its core, completely empty. I don’t know how else to describe thi... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
i don't know if you've noticed it's like a duty, you know, huh » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
hello..? yesterday's condition was terrible, but we seem to be feeling better today. it takes time, you know? calm your inner nightmare. i just miss you.. have a good night » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
sometimes i see, or at least i feel, that something is wrong. when i want to write to you about it, but weird thoughts prevent me from doing so. you know, it’s like i expect judgment in response (the other part of me doesn’t think that). i know you would never judge me, and you’re the sweetest person in the world. but today it seems like this bubble of anxiety has burst, and the blood from the cu... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
it's like someone is squeezing my throat (not in a pleasant way). i scream, but the answer is the sound of emptiness. it's like a hole in my chest which weighs a ton but at the same time does not weigh anything. deep wounds hurt and color everything around, but it gives a feeling and colors of life. not empty silence. » Continue Reading
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Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
Transferring your consciousness, or rather, a copy of your consciousness, to another medium does not guarantee the transfer of subjective experience. As a person and as a subjective experience, you will die, and only your copy, imitating you, will remain. » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
idiot, i turned on the kettle on the stove and went back to the computer for maybe 20 minutes or more, i didn't understand what was wrong with my feelings » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
Yes, as a child I really wanted to become an adult. But no one told me how tired adults get. Yes, being an adult is freedom. But now no one will come to solve problems for you. Yes, adults have money. But for some reason, they count almost all the time and are afraid that they won't have enough. Yes, being an adult is when you can go anywhere. But more and more often I jus » Continue Reading
Category: Games
I don't have enough words to describe my delight. It seems like I've been waiting for this all my life Have fun guys :) » Continue Reading
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