"nothing"
26 english spanish hikikomori
Last active:
SpaceHey Blog URL:
https://blog.spacehey.com/disgrace
Category: Friends
My presence in my friends' lives is very inconsistent. Sometimes I will talk to a friend all day, every day. Others I will disappear for weeks. When my self-esteem is at its worst, I feel incapable of talking to people -partly because I know they could comfort me. If I experience an unpleasant situation with one person, I'll often abandon my whole social group, including everyone that had nothing ... » Continue Reading
— 1 Comment— 3 Kudos
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
I woke up and pulled up the blind. There was a religious procession outside. Penitents were carrying an effigy of Virgin Mary. Thousands of pilgrims followed behind. Someone lit a candle, and everyone burst into flames. I watched the chaos unfold from my window as if it were a movie. I was calm until people climbed the building and banged on the glass. Suddenly my room became a large warehouse, an... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
When I was 19, a man I admired told me he loved me after he caught me cutting and crying. He had always been nice to me but never treated me with what I would call love. I didn't believe him and felt betrayed. It was the first time anyone had told me those words. When I disappeared some months later, he never messaged me to find out how I was. I don't remember what my feelings towards the word lov... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
Haven has deactivated their Twitter account and changed their discord bio to "goodbye". I messaged them two days ago, and they haven't responded. They are severely depressed. They spend most of the day lying in bed and have no life IRL. Talking to people online is one of their only distractions. We've been very close for the last two years. They've never taken more than 24 hours to respond. We've ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I've wanted to write an online diary for a long time and to do so many other things, but I kept procrastinating and letting the days pass as I did things of no value, like watching youtube videos or scrolling through Twitter. Something terrible happened in the last two weeks. I won't be capable of distracting myself anymore for a long time. Yesterday I spent all night pacing around the house and c... » Continue Reading
Report User
