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life is funny so i stopped doing music (in a "serious" way) in 2016. yet here i am finding myself surrounded by people who want to record with me. i didn't ask for it, it just sort of happened. a few weeks ago i saw a post on Instagram that Chapter 17 was looking for applicants for their street team (to promote merch, music and other stuff). i sent them a message just to see what would happened. t... » Continue Reading
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yesterday at work, i got to take some in-patient clients to a movie. i'm not in the business of doing movie reviews because i'm not a film buff, but i found myself really enjoying Rental Family. i didn't have any expectations going into it and i was pleasantly surprised at how good it was. the movie explored themes around family (of course), aspiration, grief, deceit, codependency and human connec... » Continue Reading
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i found [G-O-D]. i mean, i don't believe in "god" and i've talked about this at length ( Higher Power , an atheist walks out of a bar ). but i found out something new that sort of blew my mind. i live at the intersection of Juggalos and Alcoholics Anonymous, both of which encourage members to find some sort of idea o » Continue Reading
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dear Qualifier, it's been awhile i feel like writing letters is going out of style i'm reflecting on the times that we've shared every inch you gave me, i wanted a mile you used to make me smile, but i've made myself sad i'm not angry or frustrated or mad i'm just disappointed and feeling kind of bad i didn't expect our friendship to be a fad but it was, it was something i had to grow away from i'... » Continue Reading
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nothing lasts forever. bottom line. i was talking to someone in recovery the other day and they said, "I don't believe in the pink cloud. It's an illusion." this "pink cloud" is a common term in recovery circles, similar in definition to "honeymoon period." it's that period of time when you're happy just to be a part of something new, either recovery or a relationship, and then gravity pulls you b... » Continue Reading
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FUCK THE WORLD okay, now that i've gotten that out of my system, i have something serious to talk about people say that anger is like drinking a poison and expecting another person to die. but is that true? i think anger is a healthy emotion that needs to be let out. but our reactions to anger aren't always healthy, and that's the key point. i can feel angry, and not act upon it. but, what am i su... » Continue Reading
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"Emotions are like clouds. They pass over quickly, change, and disappear with time. They're not permanent." i said this working with some clients, and i meant it. but one client said something i resonated with: "Emotions are just chemicals." they were right. emotions come from chemical reactions in the brain that fire off to produce adrenaline, serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin and more. emotions are ... » Continue Reading
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i'm in a college class about drugs, health and society. my professor posted an assignment about exploring an aspect of our culture and sharing with others in a short essay. then we're tasked with following up on two others' posts. a few classmates have posted about food, or their ancestry. and it got me thinking. what the fuck is my culture? i'm white, whiter and whitest. my ancestry is littered w... » Continue Reading
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a client came to me recently and said something to the effect of, "some people are just evil." this client believes in their heart that some people are beyond redemption. it's hard to argue with that, especially with all that's wrong in the world. but, is it true? who decides whom is worthy of, or beyond the point of, redemption? last time i checked, none of us is a god. i wrote about this a few w... » Continue Reading
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last weekend was the Folsom Street Fair and i didn't participate, partly because i was working and partly because i felt like i had nobody to go with even if i wanted to be there. that's a lie. i had friends who went. i had friends who would go with me , if i'd have bothered to ask. i didn't have a whole lot of time to be there, but i didn't really want to go anyway. that's a lie. i wanted to go. ... » Continue Reading
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i differentiate between liberals and leftists, so if you don't or can't understand that, either get lost or stick around and find out what i'm talking about. i posted 2 weeks ago about freedom of speech and why it's important, but doesn't protect people from consequences. arguably, Charlie Kirk was a sacrifice to his own cause in this regard. there are conspiracy theories about his death and some ... » Continue Reading
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i used to think i had to be busy all the time. sometimes, i still believe that. the truth is, i get more rest these days than i ever have in my life. not in a lethargic, lackadaisical sort of way, but in a way that says i'm listening to my body's needs. i'm a very busy person. in fact, i work about 50-60 hours a week between my full-time job and my side gig. that's not some Gigachad grindmaxxing f... » Continue Reading
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