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。♪₊˚♬゚jessica。♪₊˚♬゚

"i could be a good mother, i wanna be your wife."
hi im jessica and im 18
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poetry and learning
Category: Life
coming to terms with what i want in life, especially as i learn to love myself, has been hard. but it's also been freeing? i was talking to a guy for a little bit. but i think i knew i didnt really like him. i just liked the idea of having a boyfriend because then i could be like everyone else and be normal. and i could invite him for dinner at my house and my dad wouldn't disown me. and i tried s... » Continue Reading
cowboys and trying not to cry
Category: Life
forgot this website existed but i did something kinda dumb so now i wanna talk about something else. i've been really into the idea of being a cowboy. which is insane because im a city-slicker at heart and probably couldn't stomach doing half the things an actual cowboy does, but i have these scenes in my head of the life i would live. i think i just love nature, not being tethered to anything rea... » Continue Reading
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lesbianism. (Love Lies Bleeding)
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
i watched love lies bleeding on friday and i don't think i've ever been so affected by a theater experience ever. the movie was so amazing and getting to hear it, surround-sound, was honestly a blessing. i'm sort of familiar with queer films, like i watched portrait of a lady on fire and liked it, but this movie had me sweating in my seat. I legitimately couldn't tear my eyes from the screen. ever... » Continue Reading
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communication and dentist offices
Category: Life
my day was kind of crummy i have a big problem communicating how i feel to other people. like saying what im okay and not okay with. i end up in lots of situations where everyone has kind of believed its okay to make jokes about me, even people i really care about! which hurts, i guess, but i can't really blame anyone but myself. i didnt feel like talking after lunch so i spent the second half of... » Continue Reading
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body image and new york
Category: Life
been doing a lot of thinking about my body and how closely i scrutinize it, and i realized something. i spend a lot of time in the mirror criticizing myself, mostly my upper body. ive always felt my choice of clothing was severely limited due to how im "built", and i think it connects to how i view femininity and masculinity. like i cannot grapple with the fact that i can have both masc and femme ... » Continue Reading
problems
Category: SpaceHey
ugh i hate this stupid website. i keep trying to embed music but its not working :( someone help me!! lol » Continue Reading
thoughts
Category: Life
i want to do so much stuff with my life, like be the type of person i want to be, but its so hard! wish i lived on a farm so i could just feed the animals, milk the cows, plant stuff and watch it grow. thats my ultimate fantasy. also like, its so weird, i fantasize about romance and envision that for myself but i dont think im fully equipped or mentally ready to have a romantic relationship... li... » Continue Reading