been rough lately. kinda not taking my ritalin at all n im meant to take 3 a day n ive taken one in two weeks. im so unproductive its stupid. i think this weekend i wanna get some stuff cleaned up bc apparently i have an inspection next week kms. after hearing nothing n feeling so badly abt this shit w cam she messages me td to ask if i heard her in the elevator n just says ah ok when i didnt. i d... » Continue Reading
MY BUTTERMILK EXPIRES TMW!!! and i haven't even opened it.... bannock buffet coming up i GRADUATED!!!! literally!!!!!!!!! they r doing verification and then il get mailed my diploma!! now i have 2!!! i cant believe i did it and i did it so well im soooo proud ive been crying a LOT recently and i was worried n felt llike i was more reactive. but this is who ive been and i was just so out of it i c... » Continue Reading
having one of those nights downed a whole bottle of wine and i cant even get drunk. im trying to think less. being a girl means feeling this way. hoping u get caught hoping its ok. idk?!!!! girl i am gay no shock but what thats mean?!?!? anyways » Continue Reading
MOBILE BLOG POST!!!! its only 00:46 so is it really the 18th..... anyway im on sick leave from work. hr called me finally and asked me about it and when i told them the kind of accommodations i need they said they cant do them. basically they can offer me extra bathroom breaks and nothing more. i do not require that and didnt ask for it!! i was so reasonable and she just asked me if i wantsd a rec... » Continue Reading
i replied to a guy who been trying for yrs and ive seen him twice now, i think things go good but i think we need to talk more. its been weird being around another native after avoiding my fam for so long n really weird but i like it. im comfortable near him but its still new. i came back home and last night had a real intense and clearrrr dream, abt someone who has been avoiding my dreams for abt... » Continue Reading
things still suck the guy i talked abt took it weird that i needed some alone time and even tho i assured him i was just upset and having a hard time he still wanted more reassurance, we werent exclusive or together and i wanted a weekend alone.... reasonable... but he basically responded w "let me know when or if u ever want to see me again. i dont even want to reply to that bc i cant be nice abo... » Continue Reading
first post of the year!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im settling back into routine and not hating the holidays so much. going out or even just cooking for the month surrounding nye is so hard so i just fight for my life everyday. i was bored n had extra cash and decided to break my no dating app rule and go onto bumble passport and try to find my friends (i failed... too many ppl) and started just going random pl... » Continue Reading
having a crush used to make me feel like i was dying it feels good now. im letting myself play games w ppl again. i switched the connection in my brain that allows me to enjoy again. im not even up im a bit down but i still wanted to talk to ppl i hardly know and do things w them. im so stressed rn bc everything but being near others helps me » Continue Reading
calm. happy. loved. i am normal and had someone really bad on me. im ok. im gonna try to practice some more ojibwe today. its really hard bc limited resources and its really hard mentally to even think abt it. i wish things were different. i sat down to eat a classic rez breakfast and just realized i miss knowing who i am and having myself. i even looked and im drinking out of my mug from an ojib... » Continue Reading
i feel so fucking insane!!!!!!!!!! all the time!!!! i cant do anything good for myself and i feel like im killing myself just waking up in the morning/ the worst is im not even off it and im already sinking down in my bipolar puddle and spending much less time in the middle. i just had my worst manic episode in yrs and it wasnt even close to how i used to act or the person i used to be but i have... » Continue Reading
ate some expired yogurt today but decided not to finish it. i think i made the right choice bc i feel healthy but not sick. i could be sick later i guess but i dont think anything bad will come from it. i got some xmas gifts td. for my mom and brother and a portion of one of my cousins gifts. i think im getting gifts for my mom brother n cousins but everyone else i will get some alcohol. it is eas... » Continue Reading
goodmorning. after abt 200 hrs i beat bg3 today. i couldve had a way happier ending but i think it was overall really good. i love this game i already made a new character. tiefling warlock and decided to do a virtue name so i called her Normal. which is what i think she wants to be. im still identifying what the playthrough is but i threw a few mods in so i can play with everyone in my party at o... » Continue Reading