ate some expired yogurt today but decided not to finish it. i think i made the right choice bc i feel healthy but not sick. i could be sick later i guess but i dont think anything bad will come from it. i got some xmas gifts td. for my mom and brother and a portion of one of my cousins gifts. i think im getting gifts for my mom brother n cousins but everyone else i will get some alcohol. it is eas... » Continue Reading
goodmorning. after abt 200 hrs i beat bg3 today. i couldve had a way happier ending but i think it was overall really good. i love this game i already made a new character. tiefling warlock and decided to do a virtue name so i called her Normal. which is what i think she wants to be. im still identifying what the playthrough is but i threw a few mods in so i can play with everyone in my party at o... » Continue Reading
i love u!!!!!!!!! u probably not reading this. i dont think anyone is. life is good its really good. i eat what i want and i do what i want and i go out whenever i want and i built some of my goal habits. i wash my face twice a day even if im hammered or tired or sleep in or the water goes out. i do it no matter what. i take my meds on time and i drink water. i do it even when its hard or when i d... » Continue Reading
i fixed the computer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it feels good. i set it up on linux and its running rly well and honestly as fast as my pc. this laptop is old enough that it had windows xp on it when i found it. its better to have a separate machine i can use on the couch and have fun with. ive just finished setup and customization so now im just using it. i am sad a ... » Continue Reading
i try so hard to be happy. i have a loving boyfriend who i love and who loves me and makes me so happy and i let him stay in this apartment we can share with the pets who love us and bring us happiness. puppy is literally flying around like those videos of monkeys in a bathroom. im stressed so badly. a big part comes from how im treated by everyone, which sounds so silly and self obsessed. i dont ... » Continue Reading
FIRST PST OF THE YEAR AAAA i have a sweet boyfriend now and he is staying w me and we have a cute setup we r both decorating our halves. im so happy. we both choose each other and we try to help each other and make each other happy. like when we went on a trip i made an effort to find things to inspire him and when im tired he will take over things i normally want to do like make dinner and he ti... » Continue Reading
mostly writing to say work is doing good. i signed the lease on an apartment i was going for. ive been picking out furniture and styles for each room and trying to have fun w it. i am really stressed bc everything is able to be taken away for forever so i can never feel secure in anything. im really trying to feel differently and allow myself to enjoy it but its so difficult and it feels so scary... » Continue Reading
hiii today was my first day at work!! i think it went rly well and i bought a gloomy bear lanyard for my name tag!! i also got a gloomy waterbottle and a death note kira shirt! there was one weird moment where someone asked how old i was n when i answered (im older) i made a joke at life does get better when u get older, harmless n it shouldnt have started a conversation w the way i said it. it w... » Continue Reading
hiiii first blog post of november!!!! woooooo i cut my hair again even tho i said i was growing it out hehe i was supposed to go to a party tn but i decided not to go. i have had a really stressful week n i was so so tired and only know 6 ppl at this party. 2 of them barely know me, 1 doesnt like me and i prob shouldnt rly talk to 1 bc of the former. its stressful and i wanna complain but at the s... » Continue Reading
hii guys ive been going thru a lot of stuff im not super into talking abt rn. il probably not talk abt it much but its been like extremely soul crushing ive been just crying all the time and my anxiety is so high and i feel so behind with how i should feel. im stressed im sad and im really upset i guess im applying for a few apartments now so hopefully that will work out and i can get out of he... » Continue Reading
i got he job!!!! ur looking at spencers newest assistant manager!! :DD the interview went from 1300 to 1600 !!?!??!? we chatted and laughed and since i worked in a funeral home we opened up abt death views (we share views on death (irish canadian funeral is a cremation and then a wake where everyone gets so drunk they black out)) and we talked abt potentially transferring me to another store if i... » Continue Reading
happy friday the 13th !!!!!!! at work we are all dressing up for every day in october but i havent seen that movie so il just try to do that big goth eye makeup and wear my normal clothes so that way i did something extra. if i had the mask id just do a cute ponytail bun thing and throw it on top of my head (kiriko from overwatch isnt a good example but shes the only name i can think of rn lol) a... » Continue Reading