july 23. 2025

im having the worst fucking episode.

i woke up w no one on my mind. maybe feeling regret but i always am and always will be so nothing weird. im not 100% sure what happened but i wanted to be alone and i felt like shit and angry and sad and volatile and i want to scream and cry and rip my skin off my face and punch the wall.

i have no memory today like at all and today but overall. did i hurt myself and cause some injury or am i just suffering from massive insanity. 

im so mad and insecure and jealous and sad and lonely and left out and in 100 ways. what are u supposed to say to anyone anyways so i have been leaving messages unanswered and sat around all day. 

if i run away u can use this to say i went insane and took off. i hope im not murdered in between bc it would hurt my feelings a lot more if no one looked for me. i mean no one ever really seems to be really concerned but i probably say the wrong things anyways.