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Category: Life
i'mma start from the beginning when i worked at my old job, i had started abusing pot and alcohol. i drank whenever i could and i started self harming. then alcohol made my acid reflux even worse. i'd do edibles every night before bed, because it was fun and because it helped me sleep. i began to take more edibles. i had distilled thc in a syringe, and i'd apply a line or two of it onto an edible,... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
summer I've long awaited your warmth to melt away the cold to breathe life into me again to make me wonder and dream that was long ago now I'm older I feel nothing soulless please breathe life into me helios please strike me with your might I wish my heart would burn brighter than a thousand suns make me feel fire a burning passion » Continue Reading
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its me, again the sad bitch that cannot be steered off the path of your life you were in my dreams again i miss you, i'm not going to lie maybe i'm just crazy. but you understood me every drug induced delusion i had every time i was drunk every happy sad angry moment we were together. i miss that. i'm sorry. i miss you. by the off chance you'r » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
the city of grey i think i've returned all of my life has been sucked out of me once more not as crippling before but it makes me wonder why am i alive? work, work, work drugs, drugs, drugs thats all i ever do anymore. i think i'm waking up from my prozac-induced coma nothing is fine. everything is going to crumble once again. all this medication does is just try » Continue Reading
Category: Life
ive been drinking again. im not even sad or anything. i started drinking at my bfs and i forgot how much fun being drunk was and i just crave it more and more. and now i have a job it sorta makes it worth the while to wait until i dont have work the next day. i just love being drunk. im so friendly. it puts me in littlespace. it makes me sooo fucking horny and social. i miss having ppl to talk to ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
drown me pull me under and suffocate me with your love drag me under the rabbit hole into wonderland where everything is obscure grotesque and overall unique and beautiful keep me under your wrath I never wanna leave let me fucking drown. » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
why do I crave the sharpest knife against my skin I have never done it before it tempts me to cut open myself and let all the shit building up inside pour out all over my bed soaking it with everything that had ever weighed me down it'd be such a relief to see my pretty blood beneath me I can only imagine the euphoria I would feel maybe someday. » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
i miss being sick the weight of the world upon my shoulders weighing heavy on my heart entangling and strangling with all its might it pulled me down and wanted me to be 6 feet deeper the high I felt every day I didn't eat seeing the scale drop drastically how I could sip on green tea and stay up late now I feel like nothing it feels like waking up from a dream groggy » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
ugh im so fucking tiredddd. these meds im on for acid reflux have me so tired, but its the only way i can stop gagging. before these meds i felt like i had to gag everytime i spoke too much or had too much caffeine or whatever. idk if there are different meds but the fatigue is too much, ugh. my mom thinks my sister and i are gonna wake up before 9 to take the bus to the mall to apply for jobs, b... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
it has been weeks since i've visited the gray city every now and then i want to move back i miss ana i miss some of my other friends i never got to know mia i miss the gray city where an overcast day with minimal rain was considered a good day i sometimes miss the pouring rain when it was a bad day or the rolling thunder and the lighting of the storm brewing in my mind strangling my » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
my god the more i think about it, the more i think about how shitty the internet is. everyone is the same nowadays, that's probably why i fucking hate talking to people or making new friends. everyone follows the same opinion and if i dare disagree or question their opinion, i'm automatically attacked or labeled as racist//homophobic/transphobic/ableist. i just really miss the days of the internet... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
god its been a while since i've written a journal entry of any sort, but i've been browsing melodramtic.com via the wayback machine and it's just so interesting to read teenager's thoughts from back in the early 2000s. i envy those who grew up in the 90s and 00s. being a teenager in this decade is absolute garbage, i feel like my youth has been stripped away from me. a lot of people my age have be... » Continue Reading
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