Things are kinda boring after you've been reassured and your anxieties about life and the people you love have mostly subsided. like I barely have the energy to make an actual blog post. But hey, here we are. I wanna try to make this more of a daily thing, like a public journal. But hopefully usually less heavy than that giant vent post from yesterday. it's fun posting here, having an outlet to wr... » Continue Reading
Had to go out to the post office to pick up an package that I missed, it's a Eva Unit-01 model kit that i wasn't expecting until like February so that's awesome! Also I picked up an old DSlite at a local retro games shop, so that was cool. I think i'm gonna order some custom parts and do a shell replacement! maybe a transparent purple? Transparent consoles are rad as hell, they should make more of... » Continue Reading
summary of this text wall? emo fag complains about themself. herself? I feel like people view me as totally unapproachable. Is it just because the way I am? is it my my body? the way I'm dressed? Is it because I wear my hair long? I just want to know why I don't get talked to. God forbid the person behind me is reading this as I type it out. » Continue Reading
I don't know how to feel at this point. At first I thought that losing my phone (it's in my house, just don't know where) was kind of a good thing. I felt like knowing less was making my constant existential anxiety calm down a little, and it was! but then I realized that since this semester I have less classes with irl friends and a pretty big chunk of my lunch group left that I'm kind of being s... » Continue Reading
Since I doubt that anyone actually reads these, except for whoever may be monitoring my activity on the school-issued laptop I type these from, I feel as if i'm just screaming all of my thoughts on things that happen during my days into an empty void. If there's someone reading this, could I just get some form of interaction? Just a comment or something. just so I know I'm being heard. * {cursor:... » Continue Reading
Someone (I'm assuming Seniors from the buzz I'm hearing) lit a god damn trash fire in one of the bathrooms!! then someone pulled the alarm (I'm more annoyed at whoever that was then the fire starters lol) and we all had to go outside for a good 15~ minutes. Then, we were all shoved into the gyms so they could weed out the arsonists. From what I can tell, they haven't found the culprits, and they p... » Continue Reading
After my initial post (see Started watching Neon Genesis Evangelion! ) Since I'm coming close to completing the series, I gotta say that I love it! As absolutely fucked that some of it can be, overall it's great. The differences between the original series and the rebuild are interesting, and give an much needed update to the animation of the fights in the original series, bringing stronger drama ... » Continue Reading
Here again. I am absolutely drained of all fucking hope when I enter this place. Sure, I have plenty of friends but not any that I keep in horribly good touch with. Don't really share any classes with them, so it's hard to talk throughout the day. If I could find my phone I could at least talk to my friends from over in NC over discord, or even better I could talk to Max. I miss them all so much t... » Continue Reading
Decided to go to the library for lunch today. Usually, there has been very few people in here, but for whatever reason there is just a massive influx of people today. like throughout the other days i've come to the library to relax and play pony.town or whatever there's been like one or two people but today there's like 20. Maybe it's just because it's a Friday? Maybe. * {cursor: url(https://cur.c... » Continue Reading
Just a small headache of a situation, y'know? i know it's in my house but it just straight evaporated. i've torn apart my room looking for it and i'm getting real tired of having to actually listen to people. xP Hopefully i find it soonish, i can't text Max on this damn school-issued chromebook. I miss them while i'm at school :( * {cursor: url(https://cur.cursors-4u.net/toons/too-4/too354.ani), u... » Continue Reading
VRchat has been a ride so far. The day after I got my headset (christmas lol) I met someone named Max (they/he). We hit it off super hard and we've been talking almost every day since new years. At first we would mess around in public worlds, just exploring and talking to new people but more recently we've been sitting ourselves down in private worlds and just talking. It's been super nice and coz... » Continue Reading