"Wallowing"
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Category: Blogging
I feel okay. And that's weird. I feel like an NPC, bobbing from moment to moment without agency Is it bad that I like that? I don't mind moments of mindlessness. Being mindful is tiring! It's almost a relief for me to feel nothing. I don't feel happy or sad, but I'm okay. It's probably because, being bipolar and BPD, I feel so many emotions and they are all so strong. Instead of getting bugged b... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
I can't shake my depression. As someone with bipolar disorder and BPD, my emotions fluctuate but this is persistent. I'm gross. I haven't showered in a few days. I can feel my hair getting ratty from rubbing on my pillowcase for days. I haven't brushed my teeth in two days. I can't make eye contact with even my pets or husband, let alone myself. Why am I posting this? Because shit sucks right now ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I have many problems. One is not reaching out or even allowing myself to vent without feeling guilty. Sorry y'all, but this is my new space to feel real. I want to be able to embrace all sides of me, the plus and minus sides. The glamorous side and the disgusting side. Right now, I'm depressed. Today is my mom's bday but she died 6 years ago. We never had a good relationship as she had a lot of su... » Continue Reading
Category: Pets and Animals
I grew up with cats. I've never NOT had a cat until a year and a half ago when my familiar passed from mysterious causes. As of tomorrow, Bendy is our new love bug! His original name is Bentley. He's a tiger cat with the cutest ear tufts! He's 4 and "acts like a dog" as the shelter says!!! Getting a new cat is legitimately making my mood so much better. Maybe he's what I've been waiting for! » Continue Reading
Category: Podcast
My mom mysteriously died 6 years ago. Now that I'm financially stable, I can try to go and figure out what happened. There was a massive cover up in my family and I don't even know how she died. I wouldn't let them pay me to be quiet I've tried contacting her boyfriend at the time if her death but I've gotten no reply. I have no idea how to even START looking for answers. She lived in a different... » Continue Reading
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Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
I have a total Tom Hiddleston obsession. I love him so much T.T I listen to his smexy voice read out poetry and I watch any and every movie or show with him in it!!!! He's my fave! He's suave and smooth and cute and humble and soooo academic! » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
When I'm on FB or Insta, or even Twitter, I feel like I need a REASON to post something. Maybe it's because I have family on there and there's no family on here. Maybe it's the nostalgia But I feel more free to type whatever bullshit I want on here. It's nice to have a place to myself where I don't feel judgement » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I always thought I was Bipolar with a bunch of other stuff. I just found out I'm Borderline I have Quiet Borderline Personality Disorder. I turn everything inwards and will have most of my emotional outbursts towards myself. I know we need to smash stigma, but there feels like a huge difference between Bipolar 2 and Borderline Personality Disorder. BPD feels so much heavier. Idk man » Continue Reading
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