im sitting snuggled in my bed on my laptop while writing this.. this is like the epitome of being a 16 year old teenager!! i love the internet so much now.. i remember i was always online, the earliest time i got on the internet was at the ripe age of 10 years old and i honestly don't regret it :p i remember i had a giant falling out with the internet, multiple times actually (partly because i wa... » Continue Reading
the relationships that ive had with people have twisted my perception of dating i've had friendships closer to relationships and relationships closer to friendships. i was in a relationship once and we hardly did the stuff that couples do; i dont think i we even kissed. that was my only irl relationship and it lasted a month so im pretty unexperienced at dating i also had friendships that could pr... » Continue Reading
i stand by this saying since i see contradictions in commonly accepted things in society literally everywhere for example whenever people give advice.. "be yourself" and yet "don't act weird" well what if im weird?!?! or relationships per se, there are couples who act like friends and friends who act like couples, all that while the two are being portrayed as very different things. a really good f... » Continue Reading
back to ranting about my mood fluctuations... this happens around people too, usually always in the same way. to illustrate heres an example of a hypothetical hangout (i hang out rarely but still): - meetup begins and im quiet, then start thinking that im giving off a weird vibe - i get overly happy and cheerful to compensate - i realize that im overly emotional and then feel disgusted by myself -... » Continue Reading
my opinions fluctuate every two hours. i don't know what i am. i dont know what beliefs i hold and who i like and what i want from people. i can like someone in the morning and absolutely despise them in the evening. im scared of what i will think. i dont know what to do. i feel insecure. im scared of making friends because i could end up hating them. im scared of everything getting out of control... » Continue Reading
i will forever envy the people who have someone to hang out with. i don't have anyone to call, it's either they can't or they dont want me around. its very boring to walk alone but its the only way for me to not go insane twt the few people i talk to at school are not fun. they have their own friend groups and they always either hang with them or are busy. i tried to hang out with one of those fri... » Continue Reading
a bland person in my opinion is someone who blindly follows trends and has no creative thinking. i see this multiple times and i see this everywhere. the only vaguely independent thing that these people do is pick out what next big thing to follow. everyone is a representation of their past/// to do literally anything you had to have learned it at some point. but for some reason these people decid... » Continue Reading
ive been listening to this song for 24 hours a day 7 days a week it is honestly so amazing and good and im in love with it.. its called fiction friction by unwound and like its 7 minutes of auditory heaven . its like if someone took the grooves of my brain and pressed a vinyl with them, its literally THE best song that i've listened to so far i think. its so saturated and juiced up with emotion, a... » Continue Reading
this is my first blog post :p i discovered this website and i instantly got hooked!!! i knew a bit of html prior so i spent like an hour making a profile layout for myself, i would love it if u guys maybe checked it out and gave feedback (its rlly basic but still!!!!!!!) im excited about this :p » Continue Reading