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I like it when it hurts like hell
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Do you ever feel like something bad is about to happen so you wait and wait and wait until something inevitably goes wrong and then the relief of the anticipation being over washes over you I never feel good. Or at least if I do, it’’s rare and fleeting. I spend most of my time either feeling bad or anticipating feeling bad. In my opinion feeling bad is better than the buildup, because when I’m no... » Continue Reading
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Whenever I love someone, I have the deep and all-encompassing urge to keep them to myself. I wish I could keep everyone I love in a bubble and monitor everyone’s interactions. I hate people. I hate my friends because they have friends that aren’t me. I just want someone all to myself. I want to feel like I can provide everything they need. I hate it, trust me. I hate holding this disdain for every... » Continue Reading
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I’ve sort of become infatuated with jabber from gachiakuta… Kyaa he’s so beautiful and he’s a dreadhead and he’s a masochist, perfect for me >3 » Continue Reading
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I don’t know how people find fulfillment in their daily lives. it’s been said a million times before and I’ll say it once more. I don’t know what to do or how to continue on existing. Every interaction I have outside of my immediate family feels feigned and hollow, like I’m reading from a script. Every offer of help or support seems shallow or undeserved. Talking to anyone is exhausting and I don’... » Continue Reading
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I dislike when my friends like people outside of me. I especially despise when I can tell that they like said people more than me. I should be the most important person in all of my friends lives, but I know that I’m quite awful to be around, given that I can’t go more than a week without have a full panic attack. Whatever… I was meant to live online, where my depravities will be considered relata... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I was gifted Nekopara vol. 1 and 2 a few days ago ago and so far i really love the game ^_^ I know it’s fanbase consists mainly of loli-loving incels and teen girls who think RCTA is a real thing but it’s honestly really cute and fun so whatev Still not beating the femcel allegations, but what can I do? » Continue Reading
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I’ve come to the realization that almost all of my favorite media is associated with edgelord femcel 4chan ragebaiters and I don’t really want to be associated with those people… I’ll admit I can be a bit edgelordy myself but I just happen to be that way i don’t want it to say anything about my personal character And YES I can kin AME-Chan I played the game » Continue Reading
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Today I started watching watamote, it’s been on my watchlist for a while and I was honestly kind of surprised by how much I relate to tomoko lol I’m not quite as outwardly perverted but we think in pretty much the same way as someone with severe social anxiety who struggles with making friends or talking to people in general I found comfort in her character in a way I haven’t finished it yet and s... » Continue Reading
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I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I crave and seek out attention but am too afraid of receiving it. I hate opening up. I hate talking to others, but I want someone to talk to me. I want someone to care. I want someone to understand what i want without me having to say anything. I guess I’ll continue to hide. I don’t want anyone new. I just want the people I do have to read me like I do them. I ju... » Continue Reading
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping
As a very obviously Black person, it’s hard for me to feel comfortable within J-fashion spaces. I so desperately wish that I could fit into the box of innocence and delicacy that the fashion I love is meant to harbor, but I fear that I’ll never be able to. I just want to feel soft. » Continue Reading
Category: Music
Vacillator (the song that plays on my profile) is one of my all time favorite songs. The lyrics combined with the instrumental come together to create one of the most beautiful and compelling sonic experiences I’ve ever had the pleasure of indulging in. The way the instrumental starts off with this slow, hollow drum loop before exploding into this beautiful yet suffocating soundscape when the voca... » Continue Reading
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Because of my extremely addictive personality, I find myself never out about smoking or drinking. I think it would be fun, but I don’t want to become an addict. (again) Luckily, I’m pretty immune to peer pressure, but it’s still frustrating. » Continue Reading
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