Self-Inflicted isolation

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I crave and seek out attention but am too afraid of receiving it. I hate opening up. I hate talking to others, but I want someone to talk to me. I want someone to care. I want someone to understand what i want without me having to say anything.

I guess I’ll continue to hide. I don’t want anyone new. I just want the people I do have to read me like I do them. I just need comfort, but I’ve gone without it for so long I’m not sure I even know what it is anymore. I know I’m crying out into the void right now, but it helps knowing that maybe one person will see this and understand.