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i literally hate people why are they so mean to meeeeeeeeeheehheeeee i just want a friend i don't want to be made fun of for my interests or called a pick me i literally hattteeeeee peeopllleeee also whats wrong with me wanting to be friends with a guy as a girl??? like???? who cares?????????? i have predominantly guy friends anyways which doesn't bode well for a future relationship but whatever i... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i just want a boyfriend bro. i want him to be cute and sciencey and mathy and techy and teach me all sorts of stuff is that like too much to ask?? but also like i'm unironically insane asf?? so there's that i guess there's been rly good guys that check a lot of boxes on my standards but i just feel nothing towards them for some reason. idk. i hate that i do that but idk how to make myself love/be ... » Continue Reading
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you know it's either psychosomatic or i'm truly having issues with my heart my pulse is regular, but i feel like it's beating weird. all the time. if i can't feel my heartbeat i have to feel my pulse immediately or i'll start panicking and thinking i'm gonna die till i can feel my heartbeat again. even though it's beating completely fine. regular rhythm, all the time. never going frighteningly ove... » Continue Reading
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i have no idea what's gotten into me lately but i've just been obsessed with the concept of incels. i'm obsessed with the way they think. i want to study their brains. i want to know what makes them who they are. what they've experienced. what they desire besides sex. some of the ones i've tried to talk to are almost...afraid to open up to the outside world, because of the sheer rejection they fa... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i'm almost (less than 6 months away) from being 18. i have not had a SINGLE romantic interaction once in my life. never held hands with a guy, never went on a date, never kissed. i still want to love and be loved and experience dates and stuff. i want to know what it's like to hold hands or hug or be kissed or whatever. i'm kind of a loser though, too. not in a pick-me way. i'm not looking for att... » Continue Reading
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a lot of stuff happened. we never dated but we always bring each other up to our mutual friends. from an outside perspective it looks like we hate each other. maybe we do. so much has happened between us. he can't seem to let go of his hatred and i can't seem to let go of the concept i absolutely adored. he never loved me but he was just as obsessed with me as i was with him. his obsession came f... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
ok i need actual advice because this was so weird and it never happens to this degree -chugged an energy drink because i needed to get three assignments done TONIGHT -felt insanely sick -turns out i just really needed to use the bathroom so no worries there -once that was over with i started feeling absolutely over the moon -songs were making me feel incredible and i kept getting a rush of joy and... » Continue Reading
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i love so deeply it feels like a creature writhing under my skin begging to be let out » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
I CAN'T BURP. i'm not even joking. even if i'm bloated out of my mind i literally cannot burp. i have to wait for any gas to pass through the rest of my body before it can like escape. i have NO idea why i can't burp, like the most i normally do is a little "bep" that's like a singular air bubble. i have a theory that having emetophobia (fear of vomit) is what's PHYSICALLY limiting my body to be ... » Continue Reading
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
it's so fun my life is like roblox lolol but i keep getting hungry and since we can make and eat food free of charge whenever we want i keep eating pizza and then i get bloated and feel like a fat slob i was so bloated during the final part of work i had to go to the bathroom and just chill there for like ten minutes because it hurt so bad. it got even worse when i got home i swear my abdomen doub... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
i'm so scared someone knows who i am. someone is watching me. someone knows who i am and they're collecting info on me to come and find me or something. idk. i get really paranoid that i'm being watched a lot. idk. april isn't my real name obviously. i lie about a lot of unimportant stuff. not because i like lying but because i'm throwing people off of my trail just in case they know me. nobody w... » Continue Reading
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
i finally got a job. bye poorons. jk i'm never leaving spacehey. but it feels SO GOOD to have a job where the managers don't treat me like shit scraped off the bottom of their shoe just because i'm bad at socializing. praise be to God, no I'm not even joking i really believe He led me to this place. GOD BLESS!! WOOHOO!!! I HAVE A JOB!!! » Continue Reading
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